Healing Hearts Medium: Past Lives, Protection, and Spirit Communication

1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:04,000 [MUSIC] 2 00:00:04,000 --> 00:00:07,440 So I had a reading done for myself. 3 00:00:07,440 --> 00:00:09,540 I come another medium that knew nothing about me, 4 00:00:09,540 --> 00:00:11,120 nothing about my granddaughter. 5 00:00:11,120 --> 00:00:12,740 And she says, oh, your granddaughter in spirit, 6 00:00:12,740 --> 00:00:15,160 says, why haven't you written the book, grandma? 7 00:00:15,160 --> 00:00:17,200 I knew right then and there, I was supposed to write the book. 8 00:00:17,200 --> 00:00:19,640 And my daughter had no idea, wrote it. 9 00:00:19,640 --> 00:00:23,760 Started to write it, got a gal who did all the drawings, 10 00:00:23,760 --> 00:00:26,600 illustrations, and even had somebody to help me publish it. 11 00:00:26,600 --> 00:00:28,000 My daughter wasn't even pregnant yet. 12 00:00:28,000 --> 00:00:38,000 [MUSIC] 13 00:00:38,000 --> 00:00:40,560 Hi, Caitlyn. 14 00:00:40,560 --> 00:00:41,680 Hi, Cassie. 15 00:00:41,680 --> 00:00:43,400 Hi, creepy people. 16 00:00:43,400 --> 00:00:44,760 Hello. 17 00:00:44,760 --> 00:00:47,000 If you're new to our creepy corner of the world, 18 00:00:47,000 --> 00:00:51,440 this is PNW Haunts and Homicides, where we chat about true crime, (pnwhauntsandhomicides.com) 19 00:00:51,440 --> 00:00:56,320 the paranormal, all things creepy and witchy, 20 00:00:56,320 --> 00:01:02,920 and otherworldly, sometimes just weird, also very weird. 21 00:01:02,920 --> 00:01:07,640 I'd like to add, but also from the Pacific Northwest. 22 00:01:07,640 --> 00:01:13,240 Yeah, sometimes it's a stretch, but that's our barogative. 23 00:01:13,240 --> 00:01:13,960 That's fine. 24 00:01:13,960 --> 00:01:15,360 Stretching is good for you. 25 00:01:15,360 --> 00:01:17,720 Stretching is so good for you. 26 00:01:17,720 --> 00:01:21,840 We also do another thing that is so good for you. 27 00:01:21,840 --> 00:01:25,200 Tarot readings at the end of every episode 28 00:01:25,200 --> 00:01:27,960 helps us get a little more insight into our topics. 29 00:01:27,960 --> 00:01:28,840 It does. 30 00:01:28,840 --> 00:01:30,000 We love it. 31 00:01:30,000 --> 00:01:32,000 I think everyone loves it, to be honest. 32 00:01:32,000 --> 00:01:35,880 All of our guests so far have loved it, so that's what I'm going by. 33 00:01:35,880 --> 00:01:37,200 They have fun with it. 34 00:01:37,200 --> 00:01:42,640 And this particular guest that we have on today has her own Oracle deck, 35 00:01:42,640 --> 00:01:45,640 so we both pulled from an Oracle deck today. 36 00:01:45,640 --> 00:01:47,680 Hot damn. 37 00:01:47,680 --> 00:01:52,000 And sadly, Caitlyn won't be here, but she and all of our Patreon members 38 00:01:52,000 --> 00:01:57,040 can watch the video of my interview with Teresa on Patreon, 39 00:01:57,040 --> 00:01:58,360 where it's going to be posted. 40 00:01:58,360 --> 00:01:59,200 That's where it is. 41 00:01:59,200 --> 00:02:00,520 No where else. 42 00:02:00,520 --> 00:02:03,560 All right. 43 00:02:03,560 --> 00:02:08,360 So today we are joined by Theresa Watson from Healing Hearts Medium. 44 00:02:08,360 --> 00:02:11,480 What kind of services do you offer, Theresa? 45 00:02:11,480 --> 00:02:15,160 I do readings on the phone or in person. 46 00:02:15,160 --> 00:02:18,320 I do Facebook and Zoom and all those. 47 00:02:18,320 --> 00:02:19,440 I do one hour readings. 48 00:02:19,440 --> 00:02:23,760 I also do mentorship for one hour or longer if people want. 49 00:02:23,760 --> 00:02:25,720 Oh, what's involved with the mentorship? 50 00:02:25,720 --> 00:02:30,160 Mentorship, I really love because I get to kind of make it all about them. 51 00:02:30,160 --> 00:02:35,040 What, where they're at in their skill level, if they're even at the beginning of the 52 00:02:35,040 --> 00:02:36,840 middle of the end or whatever it is. 53 00:02:36,840 --> 00:02:42,600 And I help them understand what gifts they have, what I experienced with the same gifts, 54 00:02:42,600 --> 00:02:47,280 or what friends of mine, just my experience of doing this for about nine years. 55 00:02:47,280 --> 00:02:51,680 And really helping to understand where there are what their next step is. 56 00:02:51,680 --> 00:02:56,800 That's such a great resource for anyone who thinks they might be a medium. 57 00:02:56,800 --> 00:02:57,800 Yeah. 58 00:02:57,800 --> 00:03:02,320 It can be that or they could just say I see spirits and I don't know what to do about it. 59 00:03:02,320 --> 00:03:04,360 Or I'm having all this stuff happen in my house. 60 00:03:04,360 --> 00:03:05,360 What can I do about it? 61 00:03:05,360 --> 00:03:11,000 So it's just tailor-made to so many different subjects and said, "I want to be a medium." 62 00:03:11,000 --> 00:03:12,960 And are you the right person to teach me? 63 00:03:12,960 --> 00:03:14,920 Oh, that's amazing. 64 00:03:14,920 --> 00:03:18,000 Can you also write books as well, you're an author? 65 00:03:18,000 --> 00:03:21,920 I just wrote my first book and got it published this summer. 66 00:03:21,920 --> 00:03:24,600 It was something that was really special to me. 67 00:03:24,600 --> 00:03:30,320 My daughter lost my first grandbaby about two and a half years ago and she was seven months 68 00:03:30,320 --> 00:03:31,320 pregnant. 69 00:03:31,320 --> 00:03:33,440 And so it was pretty traumatic for the family. 70 00:03:33,440 --> 00:03:36,360 And she wasn't sure if she wanted another baby. 71 00:03:36,360 --> 00:03:41,840 And my granddaughter, past kept on talking about my future grandson and said, "I'm going 72 00:03:41,840 --> 00:03:42,840 to have a brother. 73 00:03:42,840 --> 00:03:43,840 I'm going to have a brother." 74 00:03:43,840 --> 00:03:48,840 So I started to write it all down and I kept on looking like a book, like a children's story. 75 00:03:48,840 --> 00:03:50,800 And I'm like, "Okay, that's just too weird. 76 00:03:50,800 --> 00:03:55,160 I kept putting it aside because you get these visions and you just think I'm just crazy." 77 00:03:55,160 --> 00:03:58,800 And so I had a reading done for myself. 78 00:03:58,800 --> 00:04:03,160 I found another medium that you, nothing about me, nothing about my granddaughter. 79 00:04:03,160 --> 00:04:07,000 And she says, "Oh, your granddaughter in spirit says why haven't you written the book, grandma?" 80 00:04:07,000 --> 00:04:08,000 And I knew. 81 00:04:08,000 --> 00:04:09,000 Oh, right. 82 00:04:09,000 --> 00:04:10,000 That is so sweet. 83 00:04:10,000 --> 00:04:11,200 I knew right then and there. 84 00:04:11,200 --> 00:04:12,760 I was supposed to write the book. 85 00:04:12,760 --> 00:04:19,040 So my daughter had no idea, wrote it, started to write it, got a gal who did all the drawings, 86 00:04:19,040 --> 00:04:21,840 illustrations, and even had somebody to help me publish it. 87 00:04:21,840 --> 00:04:23,840 My daughter was even pregnant yet. 88 00:04:23,840 --> 00:04:25,720 Oh, my goodness. 89 00:04:25,720 --> 00:04:27,480 Did she read the book? 90 00:04:27,480 --> 00:04:28,840 She got the book in July. 91 00:04:28,840 --> 00:04:32,840 She came out and she had a brand new baby boy in her arms when she read it. 92 00:04:32,840 --> 00:04:34,320 Oh, my gosh. 93 00:04:34,320 --> 00:04:37,880 Healthy, just like my granddaughter kept on telling me, "I'm going to have a baby brother. 94 00:04:37,880 --> 00:04:38,880 He's going to be fine. 95 00:04:38,880 --> 00:04:39,880 He's going to be healthy. 96 00:04:39,880 --> 00:04:40,880 Tell my mommy that. 97 00:04:40,880 --> 00:04:41,880 Tell them I'm on me that." 98 00:04:41,880 --> 00:04:47,640 It's a children's book about her being involved in the family still and all the things that she 99 00:04:47,640 --> 00:04:49,720 thinks her daughter's going to miss. 100 00:04:49,720 --> 00:04:50,720 She's not missing. 101 00:04:50,720 --> 00:04:51,720 She's still with him. 102 00:04:51,720 --> 00:04:53,880 It's just in a different way now. 103 00:04:53,880 --> 00:04:59,440 My granddaughter's name was Adley, so I wrote the book as Adalie the Angel, Becomes a Sister. 104 00:04:59,440 --> 00:05:00,680 That is so beautiful. 105 00:05:00,680 --> 00:05:05,160 I personally know people who have lost children. 106 00:05:05,160 --> 00:05:11,840 So it's, oh my God, I can't even, I don't have kids and I just cannot even imagine. 107 00:05:11,840 --> 00:05:15,360 It's about the worst thing I think a family can experience. 108 00:05:15,360 --> 00:05:20,960 It was a labor of love and I meant it just for my daughter, but as I was writing it, I do 109 00:05:20,960 --> 00:05:25,960 a lot of readings for people who lost children because right after my granddaughter died, my 110 00:05:25,960 --> 00:05:31,320 daughter put my information into a support group and didn't tell me. 111 00:05:31,320 --> 00:05:38,080 And all of a sudden, all these women were getting in touch and contacting me about, "Will 112 00:05:38,080 --> 00:05:39,080 you do a reading for me?" 113 00:05:39,080 --> 00:05:42,240 And I was like, "I'm like, there's a baby, there's a baby, there's a baby, must have been 114 00:05:42,240 --> 00:05:44,960 25 readings in a row, there's a baby." 115 00:05:44,960 --> 00:05:48,080 And I told my daughter that I said, "Wow, it's just like baby after baby." 116 00:05:48,080 --> 00:05:50,360 She goes, "Oh, I forgot to tell you. 117 00:05:50,360 --> 00:05:54,560 I put your name inside of a group because so many people were getting ripped off my mediums 118 00:05:54,560 --> 00:05:58,480 and I knew that you wouldn't do that because I have 100% money back guarantee. 119 00:05:58,480 --> 00:05:59,480 And she knew I was valid, you know? 120 00:05:59,480 --> 00:06:01,440 I was going to be valid with that." 121 00:06:01,440 --> 00:06:05,520 And so my experience with that was going on. 122 00:06:05,520 --> 00:06:06,520 So I told people about the book. 123 00:06:06,520 --> 00:06:09,400 They're like, "Please write that book and please get me a copy. 124 00:06:09,400 --> 00:06:10,640 You don't know how much that would mean to me." 125 00:06:10,640 --> 00:06:14,640 And then I started realized, "Okay, this is more of a support book for other people, not 126 00:06:14,640 --> 00:06:16,040 just a book for my daughter." 127 00:06:16,040 --> 00:06:17,040 Yeah. 128 00:06:17,040 --> 00:06:20,360 So I ended up getting it published on Amazon instead of self publishing it and just keeping 129 00:06:20,360 --> 00:06:21,360 it as one book. 130 00:06:21,360 --> 00:06:22,360 Oh, perfect. 131 00:06:22,360 --> 00:06:24,200 So we can find it on Amazon. 132 00:06:24,200 --> 00:06:25,200 Yes, yes. 133 00:06:25,200 --> 00:06:26,200 It's on Amazon. 134 00:06:26,200 --> 00:06:28,240 Adalie the Angel Becomes a Sister. 135 00:06:28,240 --> 00:06:30,160 Oh, that is so beautiful. 136 00:06:30,160 --> 00:06:33,560 I just feel like, obviously, you were meant to do this. 137 00:06:33,560 --> 00:06:37,160 Like this was your path, for sure. 138 00:06:37,160 --> 00:06:42,440 When did you know that you were on this path of being a medium? 139 00:06:42,440 --> 00:06:44,040 Definitely saw stuff as a child. 140 00:06:44,040 --> 00:06:46,160 Didn't understand it because I had zero support. 141 00:06:46,160 --> 00:06:49,640 I did not have the best support system growing up. 142 00:06:49,640 --> 00:06:51,200 Single mom, four kids. 143 00:06:51,200 --> 00:06:54,720 So I kind of mixed up in the chaos. 144 00:06:54,720 --> 00:06:56,720 I lived in San Diego. 145 00:06:56,720 --> 00:07:00,680 I was the only one that saw ghosts in the house and obviously it made me different. 146 00:07:00,680 --> 00:07:01,680 So I didn't want to be different. 147 00:07:01,680 --> 00:07:02,680 So I just shut up. 148 00:07:02,680 --> 00:07:04,720 I didn't want to tell people what I saw. 149 00:07:04,720 --> 00:07:08,600 And so that kind of carried through until I was about 12 and I started to really start seeing 150 00:07:08,600 --> 00:07:11,240 them again, but mostly the intuition came. 151 00:07:11,240 --> 00:07:13,040 It was such such strong intuition. 152 00:07:13,040 --> 00:07:14,560 It scared people. 153 00:07:14,560 --> 00:07:16,120 It was like, please don't go there. 154 00:07:16,120 --> 00:07:17,120 Don't go. 155 00:07:17,120 --> 00:07:19,760 There's something bad's going to happen and then something bad happened. 156 00:07:19,760 --> 00:07:23,960 And so it was like, oh, okay, maybe we need to listen to her instead of ignoring her. 157 00:07:23,960 --> 00:07:24,960 Yeah. 158 00:07:24,960 --> 00:07:28,600 I was going to say, I hope people learn to listen and take that seriously. 159 00:07:28,600 --> 00:07:32,600 The only ones, the only one in my whole life that that never did. 160 00:07:32,600 --> 00:07:34,600 Was my now ex-husband. 161 00:07:34,600 --> 00:07:38,480 Three times I told them not to go to work. 162 00:07:38,480 --> 00:07:40,200 He got attacked by a pit bull. 163 00:07:40,200 --> 00:07:42,840 He got in a truck accident and he got hit by a tree. 164 00:07:42,840 --> 00:07:43,840 What? 165 00:07:43,840 --> 00:07:45,400 You would think. 166 00:07:45,400 --> 00:07:47,880 After the first time that he would pay attention. 167 00:07:47,880 --> 00:07:51,200 But yeah, you would think that he took my feelings. 168 00:07:51,200 --> 00:07:52,440 It was like gut instinct. 169 00:07:52,440 --> 00:07:54,080 Like something bad's going to happen. 170 00:07:54,080 --> 00:07:55,480 They please don't leave the house. 171 00:07:55,480 --> 00:07:59,520 And I don't say that unless I really feel it, I would never scare someone on purpose. 172 00:07:59,520 --> 00:08:00,520 Yeah. 173 00:08:00,520 --> 00:08:06,080 That just that real gut instinct of, like my sweating profusely, I feel sick to my stomach. 174 00:08:06,080 --> 00:08:07,680 Please don't leave the house today. 175 00:08:07,680 --> 00:08:10,640 And if I tell people that, I can hopefully listen to my daughters do. 176 00:08:10,640 --> 00:08:11,640 Good. 177 00:08:11,640 --> 00:08:12,640 Good. 178 00:08:12,640 --> 00:08:17,840 So I've always experienced this, but I've been experiencing it just like a ton. 179 00:08:17,840 --> 00:08:18,840 Deja Vu. 180 00:08:18,840 --> 00:08:19,840 Oh, yes. 181 00:08:19,840 --> 00:08:21,720 How do you feel about it? 182 00:08:21,720 --> 00:08:24,360 Do you have an explanation for it? 183 00:08:24,360 --> 00:08:26,320 I get Deja Vu a lot. 184 00:08:26,320 --> 00:08:33,880 And the way that I feel it, it's like we had a thought about it before and then it happens. 185 00:08:33,880 --> 00:08:38,520 And it's almost like a, oh, this is supposed to happen like you're on the right track. 186 00:08:38,520 --> 00:08:40,280 That's what it's always felt for me. 187 00:08:40,280 --> 00:08:43,920 Like you're on the right track with that train the thought or what's going on. 188 00:08:43,920 --> 00:08:46,520 And so it's like where you're supposed to be, where you're supposed to be at that point 189 00:08:46,520 --> 00:08:47,520 of time. 190 00:08:47,520 --> 00:08:48,520 There's okay. 191 00:08:48,520 --> 00:08:49,520 Take it. 192 00:08:49,520 --> 00:08:50,520 And I don't know why I think that no one's ever told me that. 193 00:08:50,520 --> 00:08:51,840 I never read it that way. 194 00:08:51,840 --> 00:08:53,720 It's just the way that internally feels. 195 00:08:53,720 --> 00:08:55,600 That's what it feels like for me, too. 196 00:08:55,600 --> 00:08:56,600 Yeah. 197 00:08:56,600 --> 00:08:57,600 That's awesome. 198 00:08:57,600 --> 00:08:58,600 We feel the same way. 199 00:08:58,600 --> 00:09:00,360 We just have confirmation each. 200 00:09:00,360 --> 00:09:02,320 Yes, it's very validating. 201 00:09:02,320 --> 00:09:03,320 It is. 202 00:09:03,320 --> 00:09:04,320 I love that. 203 00:09:04,320 --> 00:09:08,600 And then I do have another question because it's something that has come up to and just 204 00:09:08,600 --> 00:09:11,280 kind of random things I've been experiencing. 205 00:09:11,280 --> 00:09:12,920 I haven't really talked a lot about it. 206 00:09:12,920 --> 00:09:17,600 But past lives, do you ever do past life readings for anybody? 207 00:09:17,600 --> 00:09:21,600 I have not, but they've come up in readings like I'll feel something very strong. 208 00:09:21,600 --> 00:09:24,600 Like I feel like and I'll get a vision. 209 00:09:24,600 --> 00:09:27,800 So really small things, but it's definitely something I'm going to put some energy into 210 00:09:27,800 --> 00:09:31,720 the new year because I really feel like I have that ability. 211 00:09:31,720 --> 00:09:37,120 I've had a past life regression myself with from Brian Weiss, Dr. Brian Weiss. 212 00:09:37,120 --> 00:09:38,720 Famous, yes. 213 00:09:38,720 --> 00:09:45,040 I went to one of his very large gatherings up in, I think it was Portland. 214 00:09:45,040 --> 00:09:48,920 My sister came and joined me and we went up there and I had a really fantastic past life 215 00:09:48,920 --> 00:09:49,920 regression. 216 00:09:49,920 --> 00:09:54,320 And so when I saw that in my head, that's what I see when I'm doing reading. 217 00:09:54,320 --> 00:09:55,320 So I know they're real. 218 00:09:55,320 --> 00:09:56,320 Okay. 219 00:09:56,320 --> 00:09:59,040 Like, oh, I wasn't thinking about that. 220 00:09:59,040 --> 00:10:00,560 It was just what came in. 221 00:10:00,560 --> 00:10:03,480 And so it's just no different really than doing a reading. 222 00:10:03,480 --> 00:10:07,840 And I think we're so connected to our past and it just happens to be, you know, it's all 223 00:10:07,840 --> 00:10:08,840 in there. 224 00:10:08,840 --> 00:10:14,240 So whether I'm reading for somebody right there or reading for somebody that is from hundreds 225 00:10:14,240 --> 00:10:15,240 of years ago, it doesn't matter. 226 00:10:15,240 --> 00:10:16,240 It's the same soul. 227 00:10:16,240 --> 00:10:17,240 Wow. 228 00:10:17,240 --> 00:10:18,240 So that's how I see it. 229 00:10:18,240 --> 00:10:20,160 That is so cool to me. 230 00:10:20,160 --> 00:10:22,840 I don't know why I've been so interested in that lately. 231 00:10:22,840 --> 00:10:28,960 And I haven't done any past life like meditations or anything like that. 232 00:10:28,960 --> 00:10:31,360 So I feel like I need to start doing that. 233 00:10:31,360 --> 00:10:32,360 Yeah. 234 00:10:32,360 --> 00:10:37,200 You know, I think what happens is it really helps show where you are now from, can I share 235 00:10:37,200 --> 00:10:39,280 my past life experience very shortly? 236 00:10:39,280 --> 00:10:40,280 Yes. 237 00:10:40,280 --> 00:10:41,280 If you want to. 238 00:10:41,280 --> 00:10:47,800 So when he put us kind of in that meditative state when I was there years ago, gosh, this 239 00:10:47,800 --> 00:10:50,440 must have been about six years ago. 240 00:10:50,440 --> 00:10:56,000 I just visioned like it came so fast and it left so quickly that it was like, ah, but I 241 00:10:56,000 --> 00:10:58,920 was in the little house in the prairie days. 242 00:10:58,920 --> 00:11:00,360 Is it about the only way I can explain it? 243 00:11:00,360 --> 00:11:01,360 Okay. 244 00:11:01,360 --> 00:11:02,360 I get it. 245 00:11:02,360 --> 00:11:06,580 It looked like that in the background with the hills and, you know, and I always loved 246 00:11:06,580 --> 00:11:07,560 little house in the prairie. 247 00:11:07,560 --> 00:11:11,800 And so it was like, that's like, oh, I was, I was very drawn to that era. 248 00:11:11,800 --> 00:11:15,680 My mom said I was like glue to the TV as soon as it came on. 249 00:11:15,680 --> 00:11:18,120 And I had a bonnet on my head. 250 00:11:18,120 --> 00:11:19,360 I was a mom. 251 00:11:19,360 --> 00:11:21,840 I had two daughters, which I do in this lifetime too. 252 00:11:21,840 --> 00:11:22,840 I have two daughters. 253 00:11:22,840 --> 00:11:24,080 One was in my arms. 254 00:11:24,080 --> 00:11:25,320 She was a baby. 255 00:11:25,320 --> 00:11:26,480 She had a bonnet on too. 256 00:11:26,480 --> 00:11:29,880 We all were wearing white linen cloth outfits. 257 00:11:29,880 --> 00:11:31,520 The other daughter had the bonnet on as well. 258 00:11:31,520 --> 00:11:34,560 And she was right beside me. 259 00:11:34,560 --> 00:11:35,920 We were running. 260 00:11:35,920 --> 00:11:39,360 And I was like, run faster, run faster to my little girl. 261 00:11:39,360 --> 00:11:41,960 And I couldn't hold her and the newborn too. 262 00:11:41,960 --> 00:11:44,040 And we were just running as fast as we can. 263 00:11:44,040 --> 00:11:45,040 My heart was racing. 264 00:11:45,040 --> 00:11:46,040 I can feel it. 265 00:11:46,040 --> 00:11:49,040 I was like, you've had this overwhelming fear and I kept looking back. 266 00:11:49,040 --> 00:11:51,880 And when I looked back, I saw a man chasing us. 267 00:11:51,880 --> 00:11:56,760 In my mind, I knew he was a husband, husband in that era. 268 00:11:56,760 --> 00:11:58,760 But he was very mean, very angry. 269 00:11:58,760 --> 00:12:01,560 We were running from him to save our lives. 270 00:12:01,560 --> 00:12:05,480 And he came upon us, grabbed me by the hair that was sticking out the bonnet and pulled me 271 00:12:05,480 --> 00:12:11,840 back through me on the ground, took our children out of my hands and sliced their fruits from 272 00:12:11,840 --> 00:12:12,840 me. 273 00:12:12,840 --> 00:12:17,640 And then when it didn't kill me, left me to live, so I had to witness it. 274 00:12:17,640 --> 00:12:22,840 And I just remember, that's why I'm a helicopter, mom. 275 00:12:22,840 --> 00:12:23,840 Yeah. 276 00:12:23,840 --> 00:12:25,680 Mediate knowledge. 277 00:12:25,680 --> 00:12:29,040 And I think that's a great thing about knowing about your past life. 278 00:12:29,040 --> 00:12:32,360 Mediate knowledge of why you do the things now that you do. 279 00:12:32,360 --> 00:12:33,360 Yeah. 280 00:12:33,360 --> 00:12:37,600 And so it was like, oh my gosh, I'm always worried about my daughter's safety. 281 00:12:37,600 --> 00:12:40,640 Both of them constantly, they're 25 and 29. 282 00:12:40,640 --> 00:12:42,120 You think I'd like slow down a little bit. 283 00:12:42,120 --> 00:12:43,120 And nope, it's still there. 284 00:12:43,120 --> 00:12:44,120 Oh, man. 285 00:12:44,120 --> 00:12:50,240 That's like why I don't want to have kids, because I just know I would just be anxiety constantly. 286 00:12:50,240 --> 00:12:53,040 I feel like I just wouldn't be able to let it go. 287 00:12:53,040 --> 00:12:54,040 It is. 288 00:12:54,040 --> 00:12:58,280 It's one of those things that you have to have enough faith so that the fear can't come 289 00:12:58,280 --> 00:13:01,480 in when you're raising them and just, you know, and when you're done raising them, you just 290 00:13:01,480 --> 00:13:03,840 have to trust the universe to take care of them. 291 00:13:03,840 --> 00:13:07,600 And it means that we just don't have enough faith. 292 00:13:07,600 --> 00:13:09,880 It's like more fears coming in than the faith. 293 00:13:09,880 --> 00:13:14,120 And it's really hard to do that. 294 00:13:14,120 --> 00:13:15,120 It really is. 295 00:13:15,120 --> 00:13:20,800 I'm having my own battle right now and getting through a lot of fear of a lot of different things. 296 00:13:20,800 --> 00:13:22,600 So I think that's great. 297 00:13:22,600 --> 00:13:27,520 Something that we don't work on enough and that brings, it comes up in everything we do. 298 00:13:27,520 --> 00:13:29,360 I still have fears about doing readings. 299 00:13:29,360 --> 00:13:32,600 I've probably done over 2,000 readings. 300 00:13:32,600 --> 00:13:36,960 And when you look on, like sometimes I have to remind myself, I'm real. 301 00:13:36,960 --> 00:13:39,040 I'm not an imposter. 302 00:13:39,040 --> 00:13:43,600 It's really hard because we just get that imposter syndrome, you know, really quickly. 303 00:13:43,600 --> 00:13:47,000 And I'll look back on my review sometime on my Facebook just to do. 304 00:13:47,000 --> 00:13:50,080 I have like over 100 of five stars. 305 00:13:50,080 --> 00:13:54,600 And I'm like that person loved me, that person, they've, I needed to hear that. 306 00:13:54,600 --> 00:13:59,000 They really, and so I have to remind myself and my fear still comes up right before every 307 00:13:59,000 --> 00:14:00,000 reading. 308 00:14:00,000 --> 00:14:04,000 I feel like my failure, my failure and what I realize it really is just because I want 309 00:14:04,000 --> 00:14:06,360 to be perfect and I can't be. 310 00:14:06,360 --> 00:14:07,360 Exactly. 311 00:14:07,360 --> 00:14:08,600 And that causes anxiety. 312 00:14:08,600 --> 00:14:11,520 And so like I said, I have 100% money back in your tea. 313 00:14:11,520 --> 00:14:15,280 When I started reading, it's the first thing I tell them, like, if it doesn't go well, don't 314 00:14:15,280 --> 00:14:16,280 worry. 315 00:14:16,280 --> 00:14:17,360 I'm going to stop the reading within like 10 or 15 minutes. 316 00:14:17,360 --> 00:14:19,680 You don't owe me a thing or will reschedule. 317 00:14:19,680 --> 00:14:22,840 I'll either refund or reschedule. 318 00:14:22,840 --> 00:14:25,400 And that kind of draws my anxiety a little bit. 319 00:14:25,400 --> 00:14:29,640 So we got to find little ways that work for us to let that anxiety go. 320 00:14:29,640 --> 00:14:33,320 Like, why am I feeling this and what can I do to make sure it doesn't come back in 321 00:14:33,320 --> 00:14:34,320 again? 322 00:14:34,320 --> 00:14:38,640 But it's such a great way to combat other people's fear to coming in. 323 00:14:38,640 --> 00:14:42,920 And like they can let go of a little bit of that fear because yeah, definitely. 324 00:14:42,920 --> 00:14:43,920 And that's the first thing. 325 00:14:43,920 --> 00:14:47,240 And I felt that from spirit about a year ago. 326 00:14:47,240 --> 00:14:48,240 It's just like, do this. 327 00:14:48,240 --> 00:14:49,720 And I was like, oh, okay. 328 00:14:49,720 --> 00:14:50,720 And I wrote it down. 329 00:14:50,720 --> 00:14:51,720 I'm like, oh, okay. 330 00:14:51,720 --> 00:14:53,440 And it made me feel better. 331 00:14:53,440 --> 00:14:55,560 I'm like, oh, I thought that. 332 00:14:55,560 --> 00:15:00,280 And so when I listened to spirit, they always direct me in the right place. 333 00:15:00,280 --> 00:15:02,960 I hope so. 334 00:15:02,960 --> 00:15:09,000 I know you said you don't like to scare people, but has anything really scary ever come up 335 00:15:09,000 --> 00:15:12,400 in someone's reading that you're like, ooh, I don't want to tell them. 336 00:15:12,400 --> 00:15:14,440 It kind of even scares me. 337 00:15:14,440 --> 00:15:15,440 I have not. 338 00:15:15,440 --> 00:15:17,800 I only asked for spirits of the white light. 339 00:15:17,800 --> 00:15:20,200 And I only asked for the highest and best good. 340 00:15:20,200 --> 00:15:22,440 I'll get warnings. 341 00:15:22,440 --> 00:15:25,920 And people can think that's frightening or the snap, but it's not. 342 00:15:25,920 --> 00:15:28,880 For example, I probably probably about four years ago. 343 00:15:28,880 --> 00:15:30,480 I was doing a reading for a gal. 344 00:15:30,480 --> 00:15:34,800 And she just sat down and I went, ooh, your mother is not well. 345 00:15:34,800 --> 00:15:37,880 Like I felt it come over me so strongly. 346 00:15:37,880 --> 00:15:38,960 And I had to talk about her mother. 347 00:15:38,960 --> 00:15:40,440 And she goes, oh, my mom's been fine. 348 00:15:40,440 --> 00:15:45,160 And I go, they're really telling me you need to take her to the hospital. 349 00:15:45,160 --> 00:15:47,280 Like this needs to be addressed. 350 00:15:47,280 --> 00:15:51,320 And I was like, ooh, so I get like overheated and overwhelmed. 351 00:15:51,320 --> 00:15:54,840 And she called me a couple days later and said, I took my mom to the hospital. 352 00:15:54,840 --> 00:15:56,000 And she has stage four cancer. 353 00:15:56,000 --> 00:15:57,800 She has about a month to live. 354 00:15:57,800 --> 00:15:58,800 Wow. 355 00:15:58,800 --> 00:16:02,800 And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital. 356 00:16:02,800 --> 00:16:05,800 And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital. 357 00:16:05,800 --> 00:16:08,800 And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital. 358 00:16:08,800 --> 00:16:12,040 And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital. 359 00:16:12,040 --> 00:16:15,240 And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital. 360 00:16:15,240 --> 00:16:18,040 And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital. 361 00:16:18,040 --> 00:16:20,840 And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital. 362 00:16:20,840 --> 00:16:23,800 And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital. 363 00:16:23,800 --> 00:16:27,280 And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital. 364 00:16:27,280 --> 00:16:30,280 I get something what they call peekaboo's. 365 00:16:30,280 --> 00:16:31,280 Oh. 366 00:16:31,280 --> 00:16:33,280 Peekaboo's spirits. 367 00:16:33,280 --> 00:16:37,880 And it cracks the people up because what I'm seeing is they're a little behind me. 368 00:16:37,880 --> 00:16:39,920 And I see their head kind of down and shame. 369 00:16:39,920 --> 00:16:42,320 And they're looking around the corner like, is it okay? 370 00:16:42,320 --> 00:16:43,320 Peekaboo. 371 00:16:43,320 --> 00:16:45,200 Peekaboo and that's the feeling. 372 00:16:45,200 --> 00:16:49,120 Those are the ones that have a lot more shame associated with their life and their 373 00:16:49,120 --> 00:16:51,200 or their death. 374 00:16:51,200 --> 00:16:55,920 Some spirits that have committed people have committed suicide will sometimes be back 375 00:16:55,920 --> 00:16:56,920 there. 376 00:16:56,920 --> 00:17:00,800 They've took responsibility for their own life, their own death. 377 00:17:00,800 --> 00:17:10,560 And then people who have sexually assaulted, busted, physical, physical hitting and stuff 378 00:17:10,560 --> 00:17:15,080 like that, they all these are coming up and they're behind me and they need permission 379 00:17:15,080 --> 00:17:18,760 to come through because I've got the are spirits of the white light. 380 00:17:18,760 --> 00:17:21,080 They're just in a lot more, you know, they're just learning. 381 00:17:21,080 --> 00:17:24,180 They're learning on the other side about what they left behind and they have a lot of 382 00:17:24,180 --> 00:17:25,340 shame left. 383 00:17:25,340 --> 00:17:28,140 And so I have to get permission to bring those people through. 384 00:17:28,140 --> 00:17:33,980 And 99.9% of the time people allow that to happen. 385 00:17:33,980 --> 00:17:37,100 First thing they want is to apologize, apologize, apologize, apologize. 386 00:17:37,100 --> 00:17:39,340 I am so sorry for this and they're right on. 387 00:17:39,340 --> 00:17:43,820 They're like, they're talking about this, this, this and this and they're like, yep, yep, 388 00:17:43,820 --> 00:17:44,820 yep, yep. 389 00:17:44,820 --> 00:17:45,820 And they're like, thank you. 390 00:17:45,820 --> 00:17:46,820 I needed to hear that. 391 00:17:46,820 --> 00:17:47,820 Well, they didn't even, wow. 392 00:17:47,820 --> 00:17:48,820 They needed it. 393 00:17:48,820 --> 00:17:50,020 And that's the great thing about spirit. 394 00:17:50,020 --> 00:17:56,780 Spirit knows what we need. 395 00:17:56,780 --> 00:18:04,460 And so spirit will direct that whole thing. 396 00:18:04,460 --> 00:18:05,460 It's crazy. 397 00:18:05,460 --> 00:18:10,900 Yeah, I try to have to remind myself that all the time, like when there's something I'm not getting, 398 00:18:10,900 --> 00:18:11,900 that I want. 399 00:18:11,900 --> 00:18:14,900 And I'm like, uh, yes, it's not meant to be right now. 400 00:18:14,900 --> 00:18:15,900 Yeah. 401 00:18:15,900 --> 00:18:16,900 It's fine calm down. 402 00:18:16,900 --> 00:18:19,060 I always tell people, this isn't me doing it. 403 00:18:19,060 --> 00:18:20,180 I'm just a conduit. 404 00:18:20,180 --> 00:18:22,140 I am that middle person. 405 00:18:22,140 --> 00:18:26,260 And so when people sit down for reading with me, I always tell them, if I don't do a great 406 00:18:26,260 --> 00:18:28,100 job, it's not you and it's not spirit. 407 00:18:28,100 --> 00:18:29,100 It's me. 408 00:18:29,100 --> 00:18:33,740 It's, I'm, we're a triangle and I'm not feeling well that day. 409 00:18:33,740 --> 00:18:38,020 I will literally cancel the reading if I don't feel great because part of the triangle, 410 00:18:38,020 --> 00:18:39,020 I have to feel good. 411 00:18:39,020 --> 00:18:44,020 I have to, I have to be in a good place mentally, physically and spiritually to be able to connect 412 00:18:44,020 --> 00:18:46,300 to that spirit and do a great job. 413 00:18:46,300 --> 00:18:47,300 Yeah. 414 00:18:47,300 --> 00:18:52,340 We've experienced that on the show because I told you we do tarot readings on, in every 415 00:18:52,340 --> 00:18:53,340 episode. 416 00:18:53,340 --> 00:18:54,340 Nice. 417 00:18:54,340 --> 00:18:58,420 So one of the episodes I was doing and I was coming off of COVID and I was still really 418 00:18:58,420 --> 00:18:59,420 sick. 419 00:18:59,420 --> 00:19:03,500 Like I was whoo sweat and during the whole thing, I'm just not feeling good. 420 00:19:03,500 --> 00:19:06,940 And I pulled a card that was so opposite from the story. 421 00:19:06,940 --> 00:19:11,860 I was like, there's, this is an obvious sign that like something is wrong here and this 422 00:19:11,860 --> 00:19:13,740 is not the right card. 423 00:19:13,740 --> 00:19:19,100 And my co-host was like, well, I heard that when you're sick, your intuition or your psychic 424 00:19:19,100 --> 00:19:21,180 abilities might be blocked. 425 00:19:21,180 --> 00:19:23,180 And I was like, well, that's it. 426 00:19:23,180 --> 00:19:24,180 It's so true. 427 00:19:24,180 --> 00:19:25,180 Yeah. 428 00:19:25,180 --> 00:19:28,100 When I had COVID, the first thing I did was cancel all my readings for two weeks because 429 00:19:28,100 --> 00:19:31,700 I knew I would get the COVID brain, which I did. 430 00:19:31,700 --> 00:19:35,220 And with that COVID brain, it's like, you're still, spirit's still using me and I still 431 00:19:35,220 --> 00:19:37,820 have to process it and I have to use my brain to do it. 432 00:19:37,820 --> 00:19:39,660 A lot of people think, oh, we don't use my brain. 433 00:19:39,660 --> 00:19:42,500 Like, no, I'm thinking and I'm talking. 434 00:19:42,500 --> 00:19:44,020 So my brain is being used. 435 00:19:44,020 --> 00:19:45,980 It's just a different part of my brain is being used. 436 00:19:45,980 --> 00:19:47,460 It's not my logical thinking. 437 00:19:47,460 --> 00:19:51,580 I don't do logical while I'm reading because this is not logical to freaking-- 438 00:19:51,580 --> 00:19:52,580 Yeah. 439 00:19:52,580 --> 00:19:53,580 --fair it's, you know? 440 00:19:53,580 --> 00:19:56,940 I always tell people, oh, there's nothing logical about speaking the spirit. 441 00:19:56,940 --> 00:19:58,780 So they don't use that part of it. 442 00:19:58,780 --> 00:20:03,300 And you've seen probably seen some of the mediums on TV that have gotten those little, you 443 00:20:03,300 --> 00:20:05,860 know, brain testing done. 444 00:20:05,860 --> 00:20:08,900 And the frontal lobe gets cleared out and kind of blue. 445 00:20:08,900 --> 00:20:12,340 It's almost like we're daydreaming when we're speaking. 446 00:20:12,340 --> 00:20:15,660 We're in kind of a dream state, but we're talking and we're very aware. 447 00:20:15,660 --> 00:20:17,660 Oh, that is cool. 448 00:20:17,660 --> 00:20:18,660 It's so cool. 449 00:20:18,660 --> 00:20:20,340 But it's so true because that's exactly how I feel. 450 00:20:20,340 --> 00:20:24,540 I feel like I'm in a different plane for a little while, but I'm so very aware of everything 451 00:20:24,540 --> 00:20:25,540 that's going on. 452 00:20:25,540 --> 00:20:26,540 Wow. 453 00:20:26,540 --> 00:20:29,060 Do you lose a dream, too? 454 00:20:29,060 --> 00:20:30,620 I do have very lucid dreams. 455 00:20:30,620 --> 00:20:32,460 Not all the time, but I do when I do. 456 00:20:32,460 --> 00:20:37,540 It's like, whoa, that was so cool. 457 00:20:37,540 --> 00:20:40,180 Do you think you help people in your dreams? 458 00:20:40,180 --> 00:20:44,740 I have had so many people say that I come to them in their dreams, but I have no memory of 459 00:20:44,740 --> 00:20:45,740 it. 460 00:20:45,740 --> 00:20:46,900 They're like, you helped me in my dream last night. 461 00:20:46,900 --> 00:20:47,980 Like, are you kidding me? 462 00:20:47,980 --> 00:20:50,900 I've had at least three people tell me that like you visit me in my dream. 463 00:20:50,900 --> 00:20:52,380 You helped me through this and you helped me through that. 464 00:20:52,380 --> 00:20:54,220 I'm like, I was busy last night. 465 00:20:54,220 --> 00:20:58,980 I thought I was, you know, but apparently I know how to do this, but I had no memory of 466 00:20:58,980 --> 00:20:59,980 it whatsoever. 467 00:20:59,980 --> 00:21:01,620 That is really cool. 468 00:21:01,620 --> 00:21:03,020 They were tapped into me. 469 00:21:03,020 --> 00:21:04,020 I was tapped into them. 470 00:21:04,020 --> 00:21:08,060 And I am connected to, you know, I think we're all connected, but I think I'm connected 471 00:21:08,060 --> 00:21:10,460 to certain people just a little bit more. 472 00:21:10,460 --> 00:21:15,860 And when they need me or I need them, I think that we're in our sleep state that we really 473 00:21:15,860 --> 00:21:17,820 do try to help each other. 474 00:21:17,820 --> 00:21:18,820 Why not, right? 475 00:21:18,820 --> 00:21:19,820 Right? 476 00:21:19,820 --> 00:21:20,820 We're not doing anything else. 477 00:21:20,820 --> 00:21:23,620 We need our bodies are what needs the rest, you know. 478 00:21:23,620 --> 00:21:28,260 We need our bodies need the sleep, but our spirit mind and our consciousness is going 479 00:21:28,260 --> 00:21:30,500 like, woo, you know, that was a place. 480 00:21:30,500 --> 00:21:35,060 That's what I feel like when I'm asleep, I feel like when I wake up, I've just been so 481 00:21:35,060 --> 00:21:40,220 active during the night and doing things and my doctor's like, it's probably because you're 482 00:21:40,220 --> 00:21:41,220 not sleeping well. 483 00:21:41,220 --> 00:21:45,820 And I'm like, I think it's, I think it's something more, but I don't know. 484 00:21:45,820 --> 00:21:46,820 I love it. 485 00:21:46,820 --> 00:21:50,940 I love getting visits from spirit that are associated with me. 486 00:21:50,940 --> 00:21:52,700 My father-in-law just passed away last month. 487 00:21:52,700 --> 00:21:54,340 We just did a several yesterday. 488 00:21:54,340 --> 00:21:59,100 And my husband actually said, he visited him in a sleep the other night and gave him a hug. 489 00:21:59,100 --> 00:22:04,060 And not particularly spiritual, like what I do. 490 00:22:04,060 --> 00:22:09,620 He's more Christian-based religion, and which I have no problems with whoever wants to do 491 00:22:09,620 --> 00:22:10,620 what they want to do. 492 00:22:10,620 --> 00:22:13,980 I am completely open to anybody being who they need to be. 493 00:22:13,980 --> 00:22:16,860 This is our life, our choices. 494 00:22:16,860 --> 00:22:18,180 So he doesn't make fun of me. 495 00:22:18,180 --> 00:22:20,500 I will make fun of him because we're different. 496 00:22:20,500 --> 00:22:23,500 And he said, oh, my dad gave me the biggest hug last night. 497 00:22:23,500 --> 00:22:25,100 And I wanted to say, of course, he did. 498 00:22:25,100 --> 00:22:26,100 That's what spirit does. 499 00:22:26,100 --> 00:22:28,060 You know, but I said, that's wonderful, honey. 500 00:22:28,060 --> 00:22:29,700 I'm so glad that you felt him. 501 00:22:29,700 --> 00:22:33,980 That's all that I, you just kind of have to stop sometimes. 502 00:22:33,980 --> 00:22:37,580 And I'm not here to convince people to believe what I believe. 503 00:22:37,580 --> 00:22:38,580 Yeah. 504 00:22:38,580 --> 00:22:44,980 You're just here to answer my questions and hope that someone will come along if they feel 505 00:22:44,980 --> 00:22:45,980 it. 506 00:22:45,980 --> 00:22:48,180 That's so true. 507 00:22:48,180 --> 00:22:49,700 I have a random question. 508 00:22:49,700 --> 00:22:52,900 Are you okay if I ask you like a personal question about one of my dreams? 509 00:22:52,900 --> 00:22:53,900 Absolutely. 510 00:22:53,900 --> 00:22:57,380 I don't know if you'll be able to answer it or not, but it was kind of weird. 511 00:22:57,380 --> 00:23:00,460 So I've had this recurring dream of a cemetery. 512 00:23:00,460 --> 00:23:03,780 And every time in there, I just, I love cemeteries anyway. 513 00:23:03,780 --> 00:23:06,180 But I just love this cemetery. 514 00:23:06,180 --> 00:23:08,340 It's so beautiful and big. 515 00:23:08,340 --> 00:23:12,620 And then there's this beautiful building I go in and I can like research things. 516 00:23:12,620 --> 00:23:14,860 I don't ever remember what I've been researching. 517 00:23:14,860 --> 00:23:17,820 But apparently I go through and I research things. 518 00:23:17,820 --> 00:23:22,020 But the other night, I hadn't had this dream in a while. 519 00:23:22,020 --> 00:23:25,020 And I was in the car with some people and we were coming around to corner and also and 520 00:23:25,020 --> 00:23:29,380 I see the cemetery from like a different view because usually I'm in it. 521 00:23:29,380 --> 00:23:32,180 And I see like pulling up and I just knew it's this cemetery. 522 00:23:32,180 --> 00:23:35,500 And I was like, I'm home. 523 00:23:35,500 --> 00:23:38,740 And I woke up and I was like, that was really cool. 524 00:23:38,740 --> 00:23:39,740 Like a great feeling. 525 00:23:39,740 --> 00:23:41,860 But it was also really like creepy. 526 00:23:41,860 --> 00:23:43,980 Why am I saying I'm home in a cemetery. 527 00:23:43,980 --> 00:23:44,980 Yeah. 528 00:23:44,980 --> 00:23:49,340 Somehow or another, I feel the past life you were connected to a cemetery or something similar 529 00:23:49,340 --> 00:23:50,820 to that. 530 00:23:50,820 --> 00:23:55,100 And you're just having kind of recall dreams, recall thoughts and stuff like that. 531 00:23:55,100 --> 00:24:00,860 So it's not a, it's not a coincidence that you like cemeteries. 532 00:24:00,860 --> 00:24:01,860 Okay. 533 00:24:01,860 --> 00:24:03,780 So I think you're connected to cemeteries. 534 00:24:03,780 --> 00:24:05,860 That's the first feeling that I got. 535 00:24:05,860 --> 00:24:08,180 Like you were connected to in some way. 536 00:24:08,180 --> 00:24:09,260 Cemeteries don't do anything for me. 537 00:24:09,260 --> 00:24:10,540 I don't get scared in them. 538 00:24:10,540 --> 00:24:12,660 I don't get happy in them. 539 00:24:12,660 --> 00:24:13,900 I don't get sad in them. 540 00:24:13,900 --> 00:24:16,020 I don't think of people being in them. 541 00:24:16,020 --> 00:24:19,020 I just see, I just feel, that's where all the dead bodies are. 542 00:24:19,020 --> 00:24:22,860 And I don't like cemeteries as far as not that I don't like cemeteries. 543 00:24:22,860 --> 00:24:24,700 I don't like the idea of being buried. 544 00:24:24,700 --> 00:24:28,180 I just want to be cremated and I don't want to be buried anywhere. 545 00:24:28,180 --> 00:24:31,740 And that's a personal thing because I don't want to take up space and on earth. 546 00:24:31,740 --> 00:24:35,040 That's just my feelings of it because I feel like there's just not going to be enough room 547 00:24:35,040 --> 00:24:36,040 down the line. 548 00:24:36,040 --> 00:24:37,780 Everything is cemetery everywhere. 549 00:24:37,780 --> 00:24:39,340 And people are like weird about it. 550 00:24:39,340 --> 00:24:41,220 And I'm like, oh, we just got too many of them. 551 00:24:41,220 --> 00:24:42,820 I think we should just get into it. 552 00:24:42,820 --> 00:24:43,820 Do you know? 553 00:24:43,820 --> 00:24:44,820 But that's my thought. 554 00:24:44,820 --> 00:24:47,300 I hear that a lot from almost everyone. 555 00:24:47,300 --> 00:24:54,460 And I'm just like, can you please build me a coffin from like random wood and bury me 556 00:24:54,460 --> 00:24:55,460 in a cemetery? 557 00:24:55,460 --> 00:24:57,340 And I want a beautiful headstone. 558 00:24:57,340 --> 00:24:59,140 And I want to become a skeleton. 559 00:24:59,140 --> 00:25:00,140 Is that? 560 00:25:00,140 --> 00:25:01,700 That's funny. 561 00:25:01,700 --> 00:25:05,740 So it's just like the appearance that you've had or like, you know, maybe that was a task 562 00:25:05,740 --> 00:25:10,340 that you were assigned to do in a past life where you prepared bodies and you took care 563 00:25:10,340 --> 00:25:11,340 of bodies. 564 00:25:11,340 --> 00:25:12,660 And it was very normal to you. 565 00:25:12,660 --> 00:25:14,460 So you've normalized it. 566 00:25:14,460 --> 00:25:17,660 That is really interesting because I've always wanted to be like a mortician. 567 00:25:17,660 --> 00:25:20,340 It just never, it just never happened. 568 00:25:20,340 --> 00:25:22,060 Maybe it could still happen. 569 00:25:22,060 --> 00:25:23,060 Funny. 570 00:25:23,060 --> 00:25:28,020 The funny thing is when I started school about, oh gosh, probably 14 years ago, I was trying 571 00:25:28,020 --> 00:25:32,340 to figure out what to be when I was going to grow up and I was 40. 572 00:25:32,340 --> 00:25:33,340 Right. 573 00:25:33,340 --> 00:25:35,180 Like all is 54 now, like, oh God. 574 00:25:35,180 --> 00:25:39,340 But I was 40 and I remembered going back to, I did go to college. 575 00:25:39,340 --> 00:25:45,620 And while I was there, you know, they gave those Myers Briggs testing to see where, what level 576 00:25:45,620 --> 00:25:51,620 you should, you know, what place you should go and focus your energy on. 577 00:25:51,620 --> 00:25:53,340 You know, logical thinking this and that. 578 00:25:53,340 --> 00:25:55,340 Mine kept on coming up as being a mortician. 579 00:25:55,340 --> 00:25:56,340 Oh, no. 580 00:25:56,340 --> 00:25:58,660 Pretty close. 581 00:25:58,660 --> 00:26:00,660 I did three of them. 582 00:26:00,660 --> 00:26:03,060 Oh my gosh, I should take one and see what it does. 583 00:26:03,060 --> 00:26:06,180 It's just like funeral home director or mortician. 584 00:26:06,180 --> 00:26:08,820 I'm like, I'm not doing that job. 585 00:26:08,820 --> 00:26:10,460 I don't like dead bodies per se. 586 00:26:10,460 --> 00:26:12,980 I talk about the dead, but I don't like dead bodies. 587 00:26:12,980 --> 00:26:14,820 And I really wasn't into this back then. 588 00:26:14,820 --> 00:26:15,820 It really wasn't. 589 00:26:15,820 --> 00:26:17,060 It was something that was like there. 590 00:26:17,060 --> 00:26:18,860 I knew it, but I was ignoring it. 591 00:26:18,860 --> 00:26:21,820 I really got into my mediumship about nine years ago. 592 00:26:21,820 --> 00:26:22,820 Oh, wow. 593 00:26:22,820 --> 00:26:28,540 Well, I was in my problem in my last semester of school and I was like, okay, I can't 594 00:26:28,540 --> 00:26:29,540 do night now. 595 00:26:29,540 --> 00:26:31,860 It's here. 596 00:26:31,860 --> 00:26:33,860 What made you say that? 597 00:26:33,860 --> 00:26:39,660 So my daughter's friend, they were still in, they were out of high school, but it was her 598 00:26:39,660 --> 00:26:41,260 high school friend. 599 00:26:41,260 --> 00:26:45,660 My daughter and her boyfriend had their own apartment and then they were done with that 600 00:26:45,660 --> 00:26:46,980 apartment and wanted to move. 601 00:26:46,980 --> 00:26:50,620 And so we were going to go do the clean out for her. 602 00:26:50,620 --> 00:26:52,100 So we were on the way over there. 603 00:26:52,100 --> 00:26:54,020 And she's, I'm going to ride with you, I'm going to ride with you. 604 00:26:54,020 --> 00:26:55,260 And we got stuck behind traffic. 605 00:26:55,260 --> 00:26:58,660 So we were there a little, you know, traffic a little longer than everybody else. 606 00:26:58,660 --> 00:27:00,980 And funny how spirit works that way. 607 00:27:00,980 --> 00:27:03,100 And she just kind of looked at me. 608 00:27:03,100 --> 00:27:08,100 I was driving and she goes, Teresa, she ever filmed my grandma and I looked at her and I 609 00:27:08,100 --> 00:27:10,460 said, I feel a lot of things. 610 00:27:10,460 --> 00:27:12,500 I just don't know who they are. 611 00:27:12,500 --> 00:27:15,700 And I said, so I can't honestly answer that question, sweetie. 612 00:27:15,700 --> 00:27:17,820 But if I ever do, I'll let you know, is that okay? 613 00:27:17,820 --> 00:27:21,300 And she goes, I would really love it if you could communicate with my grandma. 614 00:27:21,300 --> 00:27:26,220 I know that you see things and feel things because you know, all the kids always love my stories. 615 00:27:26,220 --> 00:27:31,700 And all the high schoolers, oh my God, we'd have the best Friday nights. 616 00:27:31,700 --> 00:27:36,660 Go stories now, but they were all real stuff and they were like, oh my God. 617 00:27:36,660 --> 00:27:39,100 And so we're at the apartment. 618 00:27:39,100 --> 00:27:40,820 She's upstairs and I'm downstairs. 619 00:27:40,820 --> 00:27:42,340 I'm back in. 620 00:27:42,340 --> 00:27:44,540 Back in has always been that white noise to me. 621 00:27:44,540 --> 00:27:47,380 That's always triggered. 622 00:27:47,380 --> 00:27:50,700 And funny thing is I had a house cleaning business while I raised my kids. 623 00:27:50,700 --> 00:27:51,700 Oh, wow. 624 00:27:51,700 --> 00:27:52,700 Okay. 625 00:27:52,700 --> 00:27:53,700 Back to me, my hands a lot. 626 00:27:53,700 --> 00:27:54,700 And so, you vacuum in. 627 00:27:54,700 --> 00:27:59,300 I'd be like, oh my God, they're all around me. 628 00:27:59,300 --> 00:28:00,300 Why is it? 629 00:28:00,300 --> 00:28:04,860 So I literally had to turn up music really loud, distract myself with like singing or something. 630 00:28:04,860 --> 00:28:08,260 So I went see and feel everything that I was seeing. 631 00:28:08,260 --> 00:28:12,540 So I was vacuuming and all of a sudden I was like, what was that? 632 00:28:12,540 --> 00:28:15,860 It was a new sensation I had never gotten before. 633 00:28:15,860 --> 00:28:19,340 It looked like a chalkboard in my head and somebody wrote a big letter on it. 634 00:28:19,340 --> 00:28:22,100 It was a new feeling that her B as an boy. 635 00:28:22,100 --> 00:28:24,700 And I went, what the heck was that? 636 00:28:24,700 --> 00:28:27,580 It was just like all of a sudden thing. 637 00:28:27,580 --> 00:28:32,900 And I'm screaming, per Katie to come downstairs because it scared the bacheezey's out of me. 638 00:28:32,900 --> 00:28:34,100 I'm on. 639 00:28:34,100 --> 00:28:35,740 And she comes running down the stairs because she's okay. 640 00:28:35,740 --> 00:28:41,100 She's out of got electrocuted or something because I was like, and she was, what's wrong? 641 00:28:41,100 --> 00:28:43,380 And I said, I don't know. 642 00:28:43,380 --> 00:28:45,660 Got this weird thing just in my head. 643 00:28:45,660 --> 00:28:46,660 But my eyes are open. 644 00:28:46,660 --> 00:28:47,660 And I'm seeing it in my head. 645 00:28:47,660 --> 00:28:48,980 And she goes, what would you see? 646 00:28:48,980 --> 00:28:54,700 And I said the big letter B. And she laughed and she goes, that was my grandma's name. 647 00:28:54,700 --> 00:28:58,540 We called her grandma B. 648 00:28:58,540 --> 00:29:01,420 And I was like, no, it's not that. 649 00:29:01,420 --> 00:29:02,420 It's not that. 650 00:29:02,420 --> 00:29:03,420 No. 651 00:29:03,420 --> 00:29:04,420 And she goes, it is. 652 00:29:04,420 --> 00:29:05,660 I just know it is. 653 00:29:05,660 --> 00:29:08,100 And then I said, okay, okay. 654 00:29:08,100 --> 00:29:10,220 And I said, I'm going to call myself down. 655 00:29:10,220 --> 00:29:12,020 And because I was pretty freaked out. 656 00:29:12,020 --> 00:29:13,580 It was a really new experience for me. 657 00:29:13,580 --> 00:29:15,420 This was something they were communicating with me. 658 00:29:15,420 --> 00:29:18,340 And I already freaked out when people, spirits are always around me anyway. 659 00:29:18,340 --> 00:29:22,380 I'm always like, oh, God, they're going to touch me. 660 00:29:22,380 --> 00:29:24,180 And so this was new. 661 00:29:24,180 --> 00:29:32,340 And so to my backup stairs and I'm going, all right, grandma B, if you're here, let me know 662 00:29:32,340 --> 00:29:34,380 if you're doing it a good way, doing it a good way. 663 00:29:34,380 --> 00:29:36,140 Don't touch me or anything like that. 664 00:29:36,140 --> 00:29:39,020 And I'm going to like to just show me that you're here. 665 00:29:39,020 --> 00:29:44,780 And I got a very simple picture in my head of like the only way I can explain is like 666 00:29:44,780 --> 00:29:48,100 a jewelry box opening and closing. 667 00:29:48,100 --> 00:29:49,100 Okay. 668 00:29:49,100 --> 00:29:51,660 I knew it was a jewelry box because I had like the same one. 669 00:29:51,660 --> 00:29:53,620 They used my frames of references. 670 00:29:53,620 --> 00:29:56,300 I had a jewelry box as well, girl with a little ballerina. 671 00:29:56,300 --> 00:29:58,500 And that's what I saw. 672 00:29:58,500 --> 00:30:02,900 And I went, okay, that was not something that I would have thought about. 673 00:30:02,900 --> 00:30:04,540 So that's what doing a reading is. 674 00:30:04,540 --> 00:30:05,540 It's not my thoughts. 675 00:30:05,540 --> 00:30:08,060 So I called her back down. 676 00:30:08,060 --> 00:30:13,140 And I said, I think your grandma wants me to talk about a jewelry box. 677 00:30:13,140 --> 00:30:18,420 And Katie just fell to the floor crying. 678 00:30:18,420 --> 00:30:24,580 I just was walking up the stairs and in my head, I asked my grandma to please show her the 679 00:30:24,580 --> 00:30:28,500 jewelry box so that we know that it's her. 680 00:30:28,500 --> 00:30:31,300 That's when I, and they're doing it live time. 681 00:30:31,300 --> 00:30:35,820 Like I'm really feeling this at the exact same time they're saying it and showing it to me. 682 00:30:35,820 --> 00:30:39,980 So we just sat there both and just like, wow, and she goes, this is new on I go, it's 683 00:30:39,980 --> 00:30:43,900 freaking new. 684 00:30:43,900 --> 00:30:46,820 Oh my freaking God knew, you know, and I was like freaking out. 685 00:30:46,820 --> 00:30:48,740 And she was like, what else you got? 686 00:30:48,740 --> 00:30:49,740 What else you got? 687 00:30:49,740 --> 00:30:53,900 No, the thing I realized that day, I stopped being scared. 688 00:30:53,900 --> 00:30:54,900 Oh God. 689 00:30:54,900 --> 00:30:59,180 Here I've seen those pictures in my head and everything was gone. 690 00:30:59,180 --> 00:31:04,700 By the end of the day, I was seeing the last thing I saw got tons of stuff for her. 691 00:31:04,700 --> 00:31:06,020 It was very personal to her. 692 00:31:06,020 --> 00:31:09,060 I kept on seeing that puzzle that was incomplete. 693 00:31:09,060 --> 00:31:13,420 That was sitting on a flat surface and I called her up at the end of the day because it was 694 00:31:13,420 --> 00:31:16,980 after we dropped her off and I said, Katie, I see an incomplete puzzle. 695 00:31:16,980 --> 00:31:18,340 Does that mean anything to you? 696 00:31:18,340 --> 00:31:21,540 Because I don't know why I'm seeing it while I'm shopping at the grocery store. 697 00:31:21,540 --> 00:31:27,780 And she goes, wow, dad, she just saw the puzzle. 698 00:31:27,780 --> 00:31:29,180 And they're like, oh my God. 699 00:31:29,180 --> 00:31:31,460 And I'm like, oh my God, what I get, what I get. 700 00:31:31,460 --> 00:31:35,540 She was doing a puzzle on her lap when she was found dead on her chair. 701 00:31:35,540 --> 00:31:36,540 Oh my gosh. 702 00:31:36,540 --> 00:31:39,020 It was very specific to them. 703 00:31:39,020 --> 00:31:46,660 So I really realized that day that spirit really wanted me to communicate and sat in the hot 704 00:31:46,660 --> 00:31:52,700 tub, asked the spirit to guide me and let me know what's going on. 705 00:31:52,700 --> 00:31:54,700 And I looked at it was the night before. 706 00:31:54,700 --> 00:31:58,060 The night before I'd asked the spirit to kind of guide me because I was getting a lot of 707 00:31:58,060 --> 00:32:01,380 sensations and stuff when I was down in San Diego on a vacation. 708 00:32:01,380 --> 00:32:04,260 And that was the production the next day. 709 00:32:04,260 --> 00:32:09,260 12 hours after I asked for it to get stronger or go away, that happened. 710 00:32:09,260 --> 00:32:10,260 Wow. 711 00:32:10,260 --> 00:32:13,380 That was the most significant thing I think that changed my whole thing was. 712 00:32:13,380 --> 00:32:14,980 I asked for it. 713 00:32:14,980 --> 00:32:15,980 I did. 714 00:32:15,980 --> 00:32:20,500 For it to either go away, I was fine with it to go away or to make it stronger so I can understand 715 00:32:20,500 --> 00:32:21,500 it. 716 00:32:21,500 --> 00:32:24,940 And I asked the universe that 12 hours before she asked me about her grandmother. 717 00:32:24,940 --> 00:32:25,940 Wow. 718 00:32:25,940 --> 00:32:28,940 That's just crazy validation. 719 00:32:28,940 --> 00:32:29,940 Oh my God. 720 00:32:29,940 --> 00:32:30,940 Yes. 721 00:32:30,940 --> 00:32:32,940 And it's been a validation ever since. 722 00:32:32,940 --> 00:32:33,940 Wow. 723 00:32:33,940 --> 00:32:39,540 You know, some of the stuff is, you know, some of my experiences, not during readings or 724 00:32:39,540 --> 00:32:43,740 anything like that, but I've had experiences myself that could be so scary and that could 725 00:32:43,740 --> 00:32:46,300 totally shoot me away for what I'm doing. 726 00:32:46,300 --> 00:32:51,420 But I always stand very firm with anything negative and I'm like, you're not going to deter 727 00:32:51,420 --> 00:32:52,420 me from this. 728 00:32:52,420 --> 00:32:53,420 That's awesome. 729 00:32:53,420 --> 00:32:54,420 Yeah. 730 00:32:54,420 --> 00:32:57,620 It's like kind of how I am with negative stuff. 731 00:32:57,620 --> 00:33:01,100 I'm just like, no, you can't come in here. 732 00:33:01,100 --> 00:33:02,100 Yep. 733 00:33:02,100 --> 00:33:03,100 Yep. 734 00:33:03,100 --> 00:33:05,340 I've had quite a few of you want me to share those I can. 735 00:33:05,340 --> 00:33:06,340 Yes. 736 00:33:06,340 --> 00:33:11,340 If you feel comfortable sharing any, I would love for people to hear the really scary stuff 737 00:33:11,340 --> 00:33:15,020 and that you're still doing it and to hear all the good stuff. 738 00:33:15,020 --> 00:33:20,020 I just push it right through because I know that light is stronger than dark and I will 739 00:33:20,020 --> 00:33:22,260 always honor that. 740 00:33:22,260 --> 00:33:25,460 Just about maybe, let's see, must have been May. 741 00:33:25,460 --> 00:33:31,260 My daughter was in the hospital for about a month while she was in labor with this baby. 742 00:33:31,260 --> 00:33:35,220 The current ones, she ended up same issue and so they kept on the hospital for a month and 743 00:33:35,220 --> 00:33:38,820 she ended up being okay and he was okay, which was awesome. 744 00:33:38,820 --> 00:33:41,220 But so the whole month of May, she was in the hospital. 745 00:33:41,220 --> 00:33:46,500 So we live about 15 minutes from my daughter and I have about 30 minutes outside of town. 746 00:33:46,500 --> 00:33:50,020 So it was quite the hospital 30 minutes that way. 747 00:33:50,020 --> 00:33:53,820 Her house 15 minutes, both was that way, taking care of her animals and her home while 748 00:33:53,820 --> 00:33:58,060 she was in the hospital and going to take care of her and trying to work. 749 00:33:58,060 --> 00:34:03,580 So man, my due dead tired, just canceled all my readings for the month of May, just dead 750 00:34:03,580 --> 00:34:05,220 tired to the world. 751 00:34:05,220 --> 00:34:10,300 And those are the times when darker energies can really sneak in. 752 00:34:10,300 --> 00:34:14,340 So those are the times when you really need to protect yourself with that white light, 753 00:34:14,340 --> 00:34:17,700 do a meditation daily and really, really protect yourself. 754 00:34:17,700 --> 00:34:23,540 I wasn't doing it because I was just so exhausted and I was worried and I had not only the 755 00:34:23,540 --> 00:34:28,740 fear of losing another grandchild, losing my daughter because she would have lost another 756 00:34:28,740 --> 00:34:30,340 child, I would have lost my daughter. 757 00:34:30,340 --> 00:34:33,340 And it just, that big on my heart. 758 00:34:33,340 --> 00:34:34,340 So May sucked. 759 00:34:34,340 --> 00:34:37,820 So it wasn't that long ago, it was four or five months ago. 760 00:34:37,820 --> 00:34:42,180 And went to bed one night and I asked my husband, are you coming to bed too? 761 00:34:42,180 --> 00:34:44,780 Because it was getting pretty late and he says, yeah, I'm coming. 762 00:34:44,780 --> 00:34:46,940 And I could have sworn I heard him click off the TV. 763 00:34:46,940 --> 00:34:50,420 I just could have sworn I heard it, but you know, you just hear things and stuff. 764 00:34:50,420 --> 00:34:54,460 I walked down the hallway, we have a pretty long hallway to our bedroom and the room was 765 00:34:54,460 --> 00:34:58,760 really dark and I just kept it that way and slid right in and it's like, oh my god, I 766 00:34:58,760 --> 00:35:04,220 get to sleep, you know, for four hours before I have to do this all over again. 767 00:35:04,220 --> 00:35:08,340 And I felt the bed move. 768 00:35:08,340 --> 00:35:10,820 Nothing as far as lights changed or anything like that. 769 00:35:10,820 --> 00:35:12,340 I felt the bed moved. 770 00:35:12,340 --> 00:35:15,420 I felt the small of my back like a light touch. 771 00:35:15,420 --> 00:35:19,060 And I thought, oh, my head is a bit, I get to snuggle and I love snuggles. 772 00:35:19,060 --> 00:35:24,540 And so I'm kind of moving more towards his side, but with my back face there and all of 773 00:35:24,540 --> 00:35:32,220 a sudden I heard a growl, a very distinct, awful, horrible growl in my ear. 774 00:35:32,220 --> 00:35:35,820 I knew my husband would never in my, in his life growl like that. 775 00:35:35,820 --> 00:35:38,320 It was, it was nasty. 776 00:35:38,320 --> 00:35:43,260 And I turned around because when I have anything that happens to me negatively, I face it. 777 00:35:43,260 --> 00:35:46,940 I never, ever coward out because I know that that's what they want. 778 00:35:46,940 --> 00:35:52,180 So I turned and I was thinking, I'm going to see something pretty nasty right now, but it 779 00:35:52,180 --> 00:35:55,060 didn't show itself to me, but I felt its presence. 780 00:35:55,060 --> 00:36:00,860 And I just sat up in bed and my husband was still, I could still see the TV light down the 781 00:36:00,860 --> 00:36:04,740 hallway since I was looking that way now. 782 00:36:04,740 --> 00:36:08,980 And looked and I looked over there and I just went, get the hell out of my house and don't 783 00:36:08,980 --> 00:36:10,980 you ever fucking come back. 784 00:36:10,980 --> 00:36:12,580 And I'm screaming at it. 785 00:36:12,580 --> 00:36:15,100 And my husband's like, what honey and I go, oh, nothing, honey. 786 00:36:15,100 --> 00:36:20,260 I just, the cat ran across my face. 787 00:36:20,260 --> 00:36:21,260 And I got mad at the cat. 788 00:36:21,260 --> 00:36:23,260 You know, I had to pick up like a story really fast. 789 00:36:23,260 --> 00:36:27,820 I'm like, uh, uh, uh, uh, I'm reading an entity from his side of the bed and he's going to 790 00:36:27,820 --> 00:36:29,340 have to come to bed here all soon. 791 00:36:29,340 --> 00:36:30,700 It wasn't going to happen. 792 00:36:30,700 --> 00:36:35,700 And so I felt the presence leave like immediately and the shift and the air changed everything, 793 00:36:35,700 --> 00:36:38,020 but I was like, oh my God. 794 00:36:38,020 --> 00:36:41,300 And I knew immediately right then and there, I'm too tired. 795 00:36:41,300 --> 00:36:45,780 I need to take a little mental break and I need to get some really good sleep. 796 00:36:45,780 --> 00:36:49,580 So I kind of revenge my schedule will definitely the next day to meditate, to get some rest, 797 00:36:49,580 --> 00:36:55,820 and eat some good food and to, you know, really be a little better about not accepting that 798 00:36:55,820 --> 00:36:58,700 kind of energy in my home because of my fatigue. 799 00:36:58,700 --> 00:37:00,220 And so that's what we need. 800 00:37:00,220 --> 00:37:06,060 As light workers really need to be careful that we get broke down, they get a creep in. 801 00:37:06,060 --> 00:37:10,300 And so being a child, you can creep in all the time because children don't have those 802 00:37:10,300 --> 00:37:11,460 defense mechanisms. 803 00:37:11,460 --> 00:37:17,580 My daughter was, my daughter who had the baby was terrified by spirits as a child, by negative 804 00:37:17,580 --> 00:37:19,860 entities as a child. 805 00:37:19,860 --> 00:37:23,500 We went through a bottle of tons probably every two months in our house and it was because 806 00:37:23,500 --> 00:37:25,140 she had heartburn constantly. 807 00:37:25,140 --> 00:37:26,140 Aww. 808 00:37:26,140 --> 00:37:27,740 Or baby, I had no idea. 809 00:37:27,740 --> 00:37:33,060 I had no idea what was going on because she was, uh, unable to speak. 810 00:37:33,060 --> 00:37:37,900 So she got, I at such a young age that she really didn't get to develop and they didn't 811 00:37:37,900 --> 00:37:42,540 diagnose her until she was like two, that she was starting to speak and all of a sudden tongue 812 00:37:42,540 --> 00:37:43,540 twisted. 813 00:37:43,540 --> 00:37:52,220 And I talked to a few mediums down the line and they're like, that's from pure fear. 814 00:37:52,220 --> 00:37:54,980 That's from pure fear because she was talking and then all of a sudden it twisted. 815 00:37:54,980 --> 00:37:56,860 It wasn't, she was born that way. 816 00:37:56,860 --> 00:38:00,380 Her son was born with a tongue twist, which isn't just a tongue tie. 817 00:38:00,380 --> 00:38:04,860 And so she was not, she did not get diagnosed as a baby and she was talking. 818 00:38:04,860 --> 00:38:07,860 She was able to speak and then all of a sudden nothing. 819 00:38:07,860 --> 00:38:09,340 She just couldn't even get words out. 820 00:38:09,340 --> 00:38:11,340 So she couldn't speak to me. 821 00:38:11,340 --> 00:38:14,500 She wasn't speaking to therapy for three days a week for a year. 822 00:38:14,500 --> 00:38:17,460 So she couldn't speak to me and tell me what she was seeing. 823 00:38:17,460 --> 00:38:19,340 All she had was fear in her eyes all the time. 824 00:38:19,340 --> 00:38:21,700 And that is so heartbreaking. 825 00:38:21,700 --> 00:38:28,380 That is one of the, you know, one of the reasons I'm, I'm an advocate really for people who 826 00:38:28,380 --> 00:38:31,580 have been children with issues in the house. 827 00:38:31,580 --> 00:38:32,900 I will go to your house. 828 00:38:32,900 --> 00:38:34,620 I will talk to you for an hour on the phone. 829 00:38:34,620 --> 00:38:36,140 I will do anything to help that child. 830 00:38:36,140 --> 00:38:38,300 I do not want that. 831 00:38:38,300 --> 00:38:40,860 I do not want that for children because my child lived it. 832 00:38:40,860 --> 00:38:41,860 I lived it. 833 00:38:41,860 --> 00:38:43,420 No one understood what I was seeing. 834 00:38:43,420 --> 00:38:47,900 I didn't have the ability to communicate to my family about what was going on. 835 00:38:47,900 --> 00:38:54,260 We were living in dire situations with, you know, being very poor. 836 00:38:54,260 --> 00:38:55,860 There was no resources for that kind of stuff. 837 00:38:55,860 --> 00:38:56,860 And I didn't understand it anyway. 838 00:38:56,860 --> 00:39:01,260 So I just zipped it and shut it and didn't speak about it. 839 00:39:01,260 --> 00:39:02,780 But my daughter couldn't speak. 840 00:39:02,780 --> 00:39:05,620 I was the worst thing about it, you know. 841 00:39:05,620 --> 00:39:08,460 So I like to give children voices if possible. 842 00:39:08,460 --> 00:39:09,460 Yeah. 843 00:39:09,460 --> 00:39:11,500 Oh, that is so amazing. 844 00:39:11,500 --> 00:39:13,940 Kids shouldn't have to do with that. 845 00:39:13,940 --> 00:39:14,940 They got enough going on. 846 00:39:14,940 --> 00:39:16,900 They just do not need that. 847 00:39:16,900 --> 00:39:21,580 So yeah, it's, it's a gift when, when we can help the little ones. 848 00:39:21,580 --> 00:39:22,580 That's for sure. 849 00:39:22,580 --> 00:39:23,580 It is. 850 00:39:23,580 --> 00:39:27,340 And it's nice to know that there's another option too of something to look at. 851 00:39:27,340 --> 00:39:33,300 Even if you don't necessarily believe in it, maybe just even look at it as an option to 852 00:39:33,300 --> 00:39:36,540 help if you've gone, you know, and tried to do everything else. 853 00:39:36,540 --> 00:39:37,540 Right. 854 00:39:37,540 --> 00:39:41,500 If we can just offer any advice or say anything to them to give them any kind of guidance or 855 00:39:41,500 --> 00:39:42,500 help, definitely. 856 00:39:42,500 --> 00:39:46,220 I'm currently helping this little little lady in my town, she's 97. 857 00:39:46,220 --> 00:39:52,180 And her family got ahold of me through social media and put it out there saying, I'm looking 858 00:39:52,180 --> 00:39:56,380 for a meeting in the area, please don't judge me kind of a thing. 859 00:39:56,380 --> 00:40:00,420 But if anybody can contact in, I guess my name was mentioned on there quite a few times 860 00:40:00,420 --> 00:40:03,620 because I live in a pretty small, you know, area, Eugene, Oregon. 861 00:40:03,620 --> 00:40:06,620 And it's not tiny, but it's not huge. 862 00:40:06,620 --> 00:40:10,340 But a lot of people that put me down and so she contacted me and I'm so glad she did. 863 00:40:10,340 --> 00:40:15,300 Her mother's so sweet, 97 years old, lives by herself still and wants to. 864 00:40:15,300 --> 00:40:20,140 But from the best of what I can become is she has a portal in her house. 865 00:40:20,140 --> 00:40:23,740 She keeps on getting spirits and keeps visiting her different ones every night. 866 00:40:23,740 --> 00:40:27,140 And she looks at me and I like it out of my house and they'll get up and walk right out 867 00:40:27,140 --> 00:40:28,140 of the closet. 868 00:40:28,140 --> 00:40:29,140 It's always the closet. 869 00:40:29,140 --> 00:40:32,260 So you got a little portal going on in her closet. 870 00:40:32,260 --> 00:40:33,860 Why is it always the closet? 871 00:40:33,860 --> 00:40:36,900 Oh no, my daughter was horrified by her closet. 872 00:40:36,900 --> 00:40:41,780 But I'm going to go over there this week since I'm back from being out of town and all that 873 00:40:41,780 --> 00:40:42,780 kind of stuff on the stage. 874 00:40:42,780 --> 00:40:44,420 I'm going to put some crystals out. 875 00:40:44,420 --> 00:40:48,700 And but I've been given the family advice with like salt to do all the, you know, openings 876 00:40:48,700 --> 00:40:51,100 being very verbal about this is what I don't want. 877 00:40:51,100 --> 00:40:52,100 This is what I want. 878 00:40:52,100 --> 00:40:53,940 And it has been helping. 879 00:40:53,940 --> 00:40:57,580 There has been some less activity, but I want it gone. 880 00:40:57,580 --> 00:41:01,180 97 year old woman doesn't need to be faced with that kind of stuff. 881 00:41:01,180 --> 00:41:04,700 It's just, you know, hard enough to get up in the morning and deal with it and everything 882 00:41:04,700 --> 00:41:05,700 in her ailments. 883 00:41:05,700 --> 00:41:09,140 But she's very with it, you know, and she's just like, they just sit at the end of my 884 00:41:09,140 --> 00:41:13,420 bed and they stare at me and I'm like, oh, yeah, I know that one. 885 00:41:13,420 --> 00:41:15,180 I had a house with a portal. 886 00:41:15,180 --> 00:41:16,180 So I understand. 887 00:41:16,180 --> 00:41:20,700 Oh, and they just stare at you from the hallway and they under your bed and had that 888 00:41:20,700 --> 00:41:21,700 grown up too. 889 00:41:21,700 --> 00:41:25,660 And you wake up and you're seeing spirit just staring at you. 890 00:41:25,660 --> 00:41:26,660 Why? 891 00:41:26,660 --> 00:41:28,660 I know why. 892 00:41:28,660 --> 00:41:36,940 I've never seen anything during, like, during my waking time that I know of anyway. 893 00:41:36,940 --> 00:41:42,780 But I've had, I had really bad sleep paralysis dreams, which now I've just, I've explained 894 00:41:42,780 --> 00:41:47,580 away by science now, but it's so freaky. 895 00:41:47,580 --> 00:41:53,220 But one of them was like, I would wake up and be seeing my room, but I like knew my eyes 896 00:41:53,220 --> 00:41:55,620 were closed, but I could still see my room. 897 00:41:55,620 --> 00:42:00,060 And I saw like a little creepy girl standing at the end of my bed staring at me and I was 898 00:42:00,060 --> 00:42:02,540 just like, seriously. 899 00:42:02,540 --> 00:42:07,780 It got so bad with my daughter, we were public and she would say, she's probably about eight. 900 00:42:07,780 --> 00:42:11,900 She looked over a side of her eyes and looked over and she go, do you see that? 901 00:42:11,900 --> 00:42:12,900 And I go, I do. 902 00:42:12,900 --> 00:42:14,180 And she goes, okay. 903 00:42:14,180 --> 00:42:16,980 And she'd be like, I just want to make sure she was real. 904 00:42:16,980 --> 00:42:21,860 It got so bad because she was seeing so many and that she was being really bombarded by 905 00:42:21,860 --> 00:42:22,860 spirit. 906 00:42:22,860 --> 00:42:24,380 She has a lot of PTSD today because of it. 907 00:42:24,380 --> 00:42:25,380 She admitted. 908 00:42:25,380 --> 00:42:26,380 Like, I can't go there mom. 909 00:42:26,380 --> 00:42:27,780 I don't want to talk about it. 910 00:42:27,780 --> 00:42:29,300 Just way too much PTSD. 911 00:42:29,300 --> 00:42:31,500 She was probably one of the most horrific things. 912 00:42:31,500 --> 00:42:32,500 She was about 16. 913 00:42:32,500 --> 00:42:37,340 So very aware, very much awake, middle of the day, towards the end of the day, but it's 914 00:42:37,340 --> 00:42:40,060 about maybe like five, six o'clock in the evening. 915 00:42:40,060 --> 00:42:44,740 And her then, then boyfriend now ex-boyfriend was in the bathroom. 916 00:42:44,740 --> 00:42:46,340 We had a very long hallway. 917 00:42:46,340 --> 00:42:49,300 He was in the bathroom in the middle of the hallway. 918 00:42:49,300 --> 00:42:53,420 Her bedroom was at the far end of the hallway at the left. 919 00:42:53,420 --> 00:42:55,180 And I was in the kitchen way over here. 920 00:42:55,180 --> 00:42:59,260 So was like, you know, quite a distance away from me, but I heard the blood-curdling screen 921 00:42:59,260 --> 00:43:01,460 that I'd never heard before. 922 00:43:01,460 --> 00:43:05,380 And he pops his head out of the bathroom like, what was that? 923 00:43:05,380 --> 00:43:06,660 So I know he didn't scare her. 924 00:43:06,660 --> 00:43:08,820 It was like, there was no way within that immediate. 925 00:43:08,820 --> 00:43:10,620 I was right there. 926 00:43:10,620 --> 00:43:13,180 And he's like, like, go, like, go to her. 927 00:43:13,180 --> 00:43:14,700 You know, you can get there faster than I do. 928 00:43:14,700 --> 00:43:16,580 I was trying to get to her. 929 00:43:16,580 --> 00:43:19,980 And by that time she ran across a man in a my room. 930 00:43:19,980 --> 00:43:22,860 And she was, she couldn't speak. 931 00:43:22,860 --> 00:43:25,580 She was so hysterical. 932 00:43:25,580 --> 00:43:26,580 She couldn't speak. 933 00:43:26,580 --> 00:43:27,580 She couldn't breathe. 934 00:43:27,580 --> 00:43:28,580 She was turning blue. 935 00:43:28,580 --> 00:43:30,580 I was just like, just breathe. 936 00:43:30,580 --> 00:43:31,580 And she was just breathing. 937 00:43:31,580 --> 00:43:35,980 And she was trying to get the words out and finally got a calm down. 938 00:43:35,980 --> 00:43:40,580 And she was standing at the edge of the bed, grabbing a few things off the top of the bed. 939 00:43:40,580 --> 00:43:44,620 And something underneath the bed grabbed and hung onto her ankle. 940 00:43:44,620 --> 00:43:45,620 No. 941 00:43:45,620 --> 00:43:46,620 There are the bed. 942 00:43:46,620 --> 00:43:47,620 And she's 16. 943 00:43:47,620 --> 00:43:51,660 She's not like a little five-year-old saying and making this up. 944 00:43:51,660 --> 00:43:52,660 She was horrible. 945 00:43:52,660 --> 00:43:54,940 My kid, she never lied about that kind of stuff. 946 00:43:54,940 --> 00:43:58,380 I had never once ever thought she was faking it or anything like that. 947 00:43:58,380 --> 00:44:01,580 She didn't want to, especially that kind of attention. 948 00:44:01,580 --> 00:44:04,060 And a new her boyfriend couldn't have done it because of where he was. 949 00:44:04,060 --> 00:44:07,580 He couldn't have got under a bed and got that, no matter the second. 950 00:44:07,580 --> 00:44:08,580 And so I'm just like, it's okay. 951 00:44:08,580 --> 00:44:09,580 It's okay. 952 00:44:09,580 --> 00:44:10,580 Mommy will take care of it. 953 00:44:10,580 --> 00:44:13,580 And she's like, you can't take care of something like that. 954 00:44:13,580 --> 00:44:15,980 You're never walking in that room again. 955 00:44:15,980 --> 00:44:17,220 And she was hysterical. 956 00:44:17,220 --> 00:44:18,980 I took her and taking him home. 957 00:44:18,980 --> 00:44:21,340 And she came back, slept in my room. 958 00:44:21,340 --> 00:44:24,340 And the next day, I went and got him while she was at work. 959 00:44:24,340 --> 00:44:27,820 I said, you're helping me rid whatever's in there. 960 00:44:27,820 --> 00:44:29,420 He goes, I'm not going there there. 961 00:44:29,420 --> 00:44:31,620 I'm not going to your house ever again. 962 00:44:31,620 --> 00:44:32,780 I'll break up with her. 963 00:44:32,780 --> 00:44:33,780 I don't care. 964 00:44:33,780 --> 00:44:36,020 But you come with me. 965 00:44:36,020 --> 00:44:40,180 And he agreed to come with me to the house and we got the sage out. 966 00:44:40,180 --> 00:44:41,940 And I had about a 1,600 square foot house. 967 00:44:41,940 --> 00:44:46,820 So we started at one end and worked our way there because we were both very much feeling 968 00:44:46,820 --> 00:44:47,820 it. 969 00:44:47,820 --> 00:44:49,060 And he's as sensitive as well. 970 00:44:49,060 --> 00:44:53,980 He picked a boy from that had the same gussets her at a best friend with the same guss. 971 00:44:53,980 --> 00:44:57,500 So there was a lot of stuff going on because we were all feelers and seers. 972 00:44:57,500 --> 00:44:58,500 Yeah. 973 00:44:58,500 --> 00:44:59,500 Oh my god. 974 00:44:59,500 --> 00:45:00,500 Back it be bad. 975 00:45:00,500 --> 00:45:02,580 So we went around the whole house and ended up in her room. 976 00:45:02,580 --> 00:45:06,420 I did under the bed, the couch, opened up, I had the windows and the whole house opened 977 00:45:06,420 --> 00:45:08,060 doors, everything. 978 00:45:08,060 --> 00:45:10,100 And I say, I say, get out of my house. 979 00:45:10,100 --> 00:45:11,100 You're not welcome. 980 00:45:11,100 --> 00:45:12,100 Anything of the white light can stay. 981 00:45:12,100 --> 00:45:13,820 I want everything else gone. 982 00:45:13,820 --> 00:45:17,620 And we both felt it like the back of your neck hair. 983 00:45:17,620 --> 00:45:22,260 And he was looking at his arm and he was like, it's not gone. 984 00:45:22,260 --> 00:45:23,260 It's not gone. 985 00:45:23,260 --> 00:45:25,700 And he goes, this isn't going anywhere. 986 00:45:25,700 --> 00:45:31,180 And I remember something that my son and law has said to me, his family from Mexico. 987 00:45:31,180 --> 00:45:36,760 He said they scream at them that they scream at the dark energy that the dark entities 988 00:45:36,760 --> 00:45:40,340 to get out their house and they scream in Spanish really, really loud. 989 00:45:40,340 --> 00:45:42,220 And I was like, you know, I'm going to try that. 990 00:45:42,220 --> 00:45:43,220 Why not? 991 00:45:43,220 --> 00:45:44,220 I'm mad. 992 00:45:44,220 --> 00:45:45,220 I'm mad at this point. 993 00:45:45,220 --> 00:45:46,220 It's not leaving. 994 00:45:46,220 --> 00:45:47,220 It's my daughter's room and we need to have the space. 995 00:45:47,220 --> 00:45:48,220 I'm a bear. 996 00:45:48,220 --> 00:45:49,900 I'm a bear came out full force. 997 00:45:49,900 --> 00:45:57,500 So I screamed some very, very loud words and stage underneath the bed one more time. 998 00:45:57,500 --> 00:46:03,420 And then we were standing at the closet with our white sage and he goes, oh my God. 999 00:46:03,420 --> 00:46:05,740 And I looked over and through the mattress. 1000 00:46:05,740 --> 00:46:12,140 I'm talking through the mattress, a dark swirl of smoke came through and sage is white 1001 00:46:12,140 --> 00:46:13,860 light, white, white smoke. 1002 00:46:13,860 --> 00:46:14,860 We were nowhere near it. 1003 00:46:14,860 --> 00:46:16,780 And it was coming through the mattress. 1004 00:46:16,780 --> 00:46:17,780 And I'm looking at him. 1005 00:46:17,780 --> 00:46:21,460 He's looking at me and he goes, keep looking at it. 1006 00:46:21,460 --> 00:46:23,860 And he just like keep looking at it and I go, you're right. 1007 00:46:23,860 --> 00:46:26,900 We need to tell it like it doesn't belong here. 1008 00:46:26,900 --> 00:46:30,820 It all came through and then it just hovered right above her bed and it hovered. 1009 00:46:30,820 --> 00:46:32,980 It was like testing me. 1010 00:46:32,980 --> 00:46:35,260 I had never seen anything like that in my life. 1011 00:46:35,260 --> 00:46:36,580 I felt it though. 1012 00:46:36,580 --> 00:46:37,580 It was awful. 1013 00:46:37,580 --> 00:46:39,140 Ugly energy. 1014 00:46:39,140 --> 00:46:40,540 And I just did one more scream. 1015 00:46:40,540 --> 00:46:45,220 I said, get the fuck out of my house and don't you ever come back and I point at the window 1016 00:46:45,220 --> 00:46:47,220 and that's where it went. 1017 00:46:47,220 --> 00:46:48,220 That is amazing. 1018 00:46:48,220 --> 00:46:49,860 And so he looked at me. 1019 00:46:49,860 --> 00:46:50,860 I looked at him. 1020 00:46:50,860 --> 00:46:52,820 We couldn't have got out that room fast enough. 1021 00:46:52,820 --> 00:46:55,820 We were stumbling each other through the doorway all the way. 1022 00:46:55,820 --> 00:46:58,260 I must have fallen down the hallway. 1023 00:46:58,260 --> 00:47:01,340 We made it to the other side of the house and he goes, what the hell was that? 1024 00:47:01,340 --> 00:47:04,260 And I go, that is what grabbed my daughter yesterday. 1025 00:47:04,260 --> 00:47:06,540 He goes, you got rid of it. 1026 00:47:06,540 --> 00:47:10,220 And I go, well, you helped. 1027 00:47:10,220 --> 00:47:11,420 But we got rid of it. 1028 00:47:11,420 --> 00:47:12,700 She came home from work. 1029 00:47:12,700 --> 00:47:15,460 She never knew up until a month ago or so. 1030 00:47:15,460 --> 00:47:16,460 She was 16. 1031 00:47:16,460 --> 00:47:18,060 She was 25 now. 1032 00:47:18,060 --> 00:47:20,980 She didn't know until about a month ago that I did that. 1033 00:47:20,980 --> 00:47:21,980 Oh wow. 1034 00:47:21,980 --> 00:47:25,780 She came home and she took a deep breath down the hallway because she needed to get something 1035 00:47:25,780 --> 00:47:28,020 on the room and she took a deep breath at the doorway. 1036 00:47:28,020 --> 00:47:30,740 And I was standing right there and I go, you're fine. 1037 00:47:30,740 --> 00:47:31,740 Everything's fine. 1038 00:47:31,740 --> 00:47:34,260 She went in there and she goes, it feels different. 1039 00:47:34,260 --> 00:47:36,500 And then she never told me why it felt different. 1040 00:47:36,500 --> 00:47:37,980 I never told her that I did that. 1041 00:47:37,980 --> 00:47:38,980 He never told her. 1042 00:47:38,980 --> 00:47:40,740 But yeah, she found out about a month ago. 1043 00:47:40,740 --> 00:47:42,340 I had posted something. 1044 00:47:42,340 --> 00:47:45,260 And she saw it and she goes, in my room. 1045 00:47:45,260 --> 00:47:48,220 And I'm like, oops. 1046 00:47:48,220 --> 00:47:50,180 I forgot to tell you that one. 1047 00:47:50,180 --> 00:47:52,180 Yeah, just slipped my mind. 1048 00:47:52,180 --> 00:47:54,500 I didn't think you can handle it back then, honey. 1049 00:47:54,500 --> 00:47:55,500 You were pretty stressed out. 1050 00:47:55,500 --> 00:47:57,540 But I don't want to talk about it. 1051 00:47:57,540 --> 00:47:58,540 I don't want to talk about it. 1052 00:47:58,540 --> 00:47:59,540 And I never did. 1053 00:47:59,540 --> 00:48:00,540 She never asked about it. 1054 00:48:00,540 --> 00:48:01,540 Oh, yeah. 1055 00:48:01,540 --> 00:48:06,180 She was like, that would make me feel so protected though that I had a mother who 1056 00:48:06,180 --> 00:48:09,100 was that powerful against something so dark. 1057 00:48:09,100 --> 00:48:14,060 It felt really good to be able to be that mom that my mom couldn't because she didn't understand 1058 00:48:14,060 --> 00:48:15,060 it. 1059 00:48:15,060 --> 00:48:18,180 But I could be this mom to her until she was older. 1060 00:48:18,180 --> 00:48:19,780 I wasn't able to help when she was younger. 1061 00:48:19,780 --> 00:48:22,820 And I think that's why I love helping the little. 1062 00:48:22,820 --> 00:48:26,900 I just, I feel like that's just something that's part of me. 1063 00:48:26,900 --> 00:48:31,740 And like, you know, from past experiences, past lives, whatever it is, it's just something 1064 00:48:31,740 --> 00:48:32,740 in me. 1065 00:48:32,740 --> 00:48:35,620 But that dark energy, you know, some people don't believe in dark energy. 1066 00:48:35,620 --> 00:48:36,620 I don't care what they believe. 1067 00:48:36,620 --> 00:48:38,540 I said, I'm not here to convince anybody. 1068 00:48:38,540 --> 00:48:40,380 I just know my own experiences. 1069 00:48:40,380 --> 00:48:42,580 And that was the really nasty experience. 1070 00:48:42,580 --> 00:48:43,580 Yeah. 1071 00:48:43,580 --> 00:48:44,580 Oh my gosh. 1072 00:48:44,580 --> 00:48:47,340 So how do you feel about Ouija boards? 1073 00:48:47,340 --> 00:48:49,340 I actually stay away from anything like that. 1074 00:48:49,340 --> 00:48:53,380 My friend actually made a spirit board. 1075 00:48:53,380 --> 00:48:54,380 He called it. 1076 00:48:54,380 --> 00:48:55,700 And so it's very similar to a Ouija board. 1077 00:48:55,700 --> 00:48:56,700 It was blessed. 1078 00:48:56,700 --> 00:49:01,460 And he was a, he's still practices being a Buddhist monk, but he is a medium. 1079 00:49:01,460 --> 00:49:03,380 So it's kind of a contradictory of terms. 1080 00:49:03,380 --> 00:49:04,380 Oh, okay. 1081 00:49:04,380 --> 00:49:05,380 That's really cool though. 1082 00:49:05,380 --> 00:49:10,540 He's my walking, talking contradiction of a friend, of a Buddhist monk. 1083 00:49:10,540 --> 00:49:12,580 We have a lot of laughs together. 1084 00:49:12,580 --> 00:49:14,780 But he actually made this board and had it blessed. 1085 00:49:14,780 --> 00:49:15,940 And he blessed it as making it. 1086 00:49:15,940 --> 00:49:20,180 And this, and I actually used it one time during a reading for a friend. 1087 00:49:20,180 --> 00:49:22,020 And names were coming through and this and that. 1088 00:49:22,020 --> 00:49:24,740 But it's just a tool. 1089 00:49:24,740 --> 00:49:25,740 It's just a tool. 1090 00:49:25,740 --> 00:49:29,060 I don't think Ouija boards is something that most people should play with. 1091 00:49:29,060 --> 00:49:34,020 If it's used as a tool for people who already know what they're doing, it could be okay. 1092 00:49:34,020 --> 00:49:38,620 But I don't think people should use it because I think anything could come through, but 1093 00:49:38,620 --> 00:49:40,660 anything could come through with a lot of things. 1094 00:49:40,660 --> 00:49:41,660 Yeah. 1095 00:49:41,660 --> 00:49:44,380 But more of an opportunity is what I'm saying. 1096 00:49:44,380 --> 00:49:45,860 You know, you get tired. 1097 00:49:45,860 --> 00:49:47,900 The spirit and dark spirit can come through. 1098 00:49:47,900 --> 00:49:49,300 You have a lot of grief. 1099 00:49:49,300 --> 00:49:50,740 Dark spirits can come through. 1100 00:49:50,740 --> 00:49:54,940 This is just another way for it to come through by using a board. 1101 00:49:54,940 --> 00:49:59,540 Yeah, I was kind of wondering why it's always seems to be dark energy coming through 1102 00:49:59,540 --> 00:50:00,540 Ouija board. 1103 00:50:00,540 --> 00:50:04,300 I don't think I've had a good story about Ouija board. 1104 00:50:04,300 --> 00:50:05,300 Yeah. 1105 00:50:05,300 --> 00:50:11,380 Because it's not something that most people should play with. 1106 00:50:11,380 --> 00:50:15,180 They don't have the ability to communicate with spirit. 1107 00:50:15,180 --> 00:50:17,140 Why are they communicating with spirit on a board? 1108 00:50:17,140 --> 00:50:18,140 I can be. 1109 00:50:18,140 --> 00:50:19,780 You have to go the proper way. 1110 00:50:19,780 --> 00:50:20,780 Learn a technique. 1111 00:50:20,780 --> 00:50:22,100 Do it and see what you get. 1112 00:50:22,100 --> 00:50:26,140 But don't use something that can just so easily trick you and manipulate you. 1113 00:50:26,140 --> 00:50:29,860 Always cracks me up when I hear people say. 1114 00:50:29,860 --> 00:50:31,220 All mediums and stuff. 1115 00:50:31,220 --> 00:50:35,060 You guys are just all, you know, you're just getting a mold of dark energy and they're fooling 1116 00:50:35,060 --> 00:50:37,180 you and this and that. 1117 00:50:37,180 --> 00:50:40,140 My take on that is this and my grandma actually said it to me. 1118 00:50:40,140 --> 00:50:42,660 She was very religious before she died. 1119 00:50:42,660 --> 00:50:46,900 She says, I actually like that you're a medium and I actually believe that you do have this 1120 00:50:46,900 --> 00:50:50,580 gift and I commend you for moving forward on your gift. 1121 00:50:50,580 --> 00:50:51,860 And she died about six years ago. 1122 00:50:51,860 --> 00:50:55,100 So I was, you know, kind of newer but not too new. 1123 00:50:55,100 --> 00:50:57,780 But she said, she asked because she asked me this one day. 1124 00:50:57,780 --> 00:50:59,260 She always called me baby Terry. 1125 00:50:59,260 --> 00:51:03,580 She said, baby Terry, do you ever feel anything negative when you do a reading? 1126 00:51:03,580 --> 00:51:04,580 I said, absolutely not. 1127 00:51:04,580 --> 00:51:06,060 She goes, do they leave feeling good? 1128 00:51:06,060 --> 00:51:07,060 And I said, absolutely. 1129 00:51:07,060 --> 00:51:10,700 And she goes, then that's your answer. 1130 00:51:10,700 --> 00:51:12,100 She says anything negative. 1131 00:51:12,100 --> 00:51:18,100 She says the dark, dark energy is, she called it the devil wherever you want to call it, 1132 00:51:18,100 --> 00:51:20,620 is never going to make people feel better. 1133 00:51:20,620 --> 00:51:21,620 Right. 1134 00:51:21,620 --> 00:51:26,140 So if you're doing something that makes people feel better, keep doing what you're doing. 1135 00:51:26,140 --> 00:51:30,460 And I will always, always 100% feel that way. 1136 00:51:30,460 --> 00:51:32,340 I love that so much. 1137 00:51:32,340 --> 00:51:33,500 That's beautiful. 1138 00:51:33,500 --> 00:51:36,380 So how do you feel about tarot cards and stuff like that? 1139 00:51:36,380 --> 00:51:39,060 Is it the same as like a Ouija board or do you? 1140 00:51:39,060 --> 00:51:41,780 No, I actually love tarot readings. 1141 00:51:41,780 --> 00:51:45,900 I have a deck but I really don't use my use oracle cards because I feel that they're same 1142 00:51:45,900 --> 00:51:46,900 thing. 1143 00:51:46,900 --> 00:51:47,900 Yeah. 1144 00:51:47,900 --> 00:51:49,380 The tool, it's just a tool. 1145 00:51:49,380 --> 00:51:53,780 If the person doing it is a medium, it's just a tool to use to get that same message 1146 00:51:53,780 --> 00:51:58,100 that they're going to get from feeling spirit and from seeing spirit and communication. 1147 00:51:58,100 --> 00:51:59,740 It's just a different way of communication. 1148 00:51:59,740 --> 00:52:03,900 I don't have any odd feelings or negative feelings about tarot at all. 1149 00:52:03,900 --> 00:52:04,900 Oh, that's awesome. 1150 00:52:04,900 --> 00:52:08,420 Yeah, because we have some people, we don't have a lot of people say it, but I just know 1151 00:52:08,420 --> 00:52:12,500 that there's people out there that think it's evil and people are always going to have 1152 00:52:12,500 --> 00:52:14,500 their opinion, right? 1153 00:52:14,500 --> 00:52:19,820 That scared the crap out of me when you moved your phone. 1154 00:52:19,820 --> 00:52:23,620 It sounded like a breathing and I was looking down and I was like, was it the 1155 00:52:23,620 --> 00:52:24,620 evil? 1156 00:52:24,620 --> 00:52:25,620 I love it. 1157 00:52:25,620 --> 00:52:29,620 That's so funny. 1158 00:52:29,620 --> 00:52:34,020 So I actually brought my moon oracle deck today. 1159 00:52:34,020 --> 00:52:35,420 Should I pull a card? 1160 00:52:35,420 --> 00:52:36,420 Yeah, sure. 1161 00:52:36,420 --> 00:52:37,420 Let's do it. 1162 00:52:37,420 --> 00:52:38,420 I can pull one too if you want me to. 1163 00:52:38,420 --> 00:52:39,420 Yeah. 1164 00:52:39,420 --> 00:52:40,420 What do you have? 1165 00:52:40,420 --> 00:52:41,420 I got mystical journey. 1166 00:52:41,420 --> 00:52:42,420 Ooh, I love it. 1167 00:52:42,420 --> 00:52:43,420 Yeah. 1168 00:52:43,420 --> 00:52:44,420 Those are so pretty. 1169 00:52:44,420 --> 00:52:46,420 I love this deck. 1170 00:52:46,420 --> 00:52:51,300 Yeah, this one would not let me leave the store without it. 1171 00:52:51,300 --> 00:52:55,260 I tried and I was like, no, I had to take it home. 1172 00:52:55,260 --> 00:52:56,260 Got to do it. 1173 00:52:56,260 --> 00:52:57,260 Got to do it. 1174 00:52:57,260 --> 00:52:58,260 I love that. 1175 00:52:58,260 --> 00:52:59,260 Yeah. 1176 00:52:59,260 --> 00:53:01,980 We've had a beautiful relationship ever since. 1177 00:53:01,980 --> 00:53:02,980 And these are my colors. 1178 00:53:02,980 --> 00:53:04,980 I was very drawn to the colors. 1179 00:53:04,980 --> 00:53:09,860 These are just when you're drawn to color and you're drawn to different artwork and stuff. 1180 00:53:09,860 --> 00:53:13,460 Like, speaking to you, like, oh, you got to do that. 1181 00:53:13,460 --> 00:53:14,460 That's going to be something. 1182 00:53:14,460 --> 00:53:16,660 That's what I pay attention to. 1183 00:53:16,660 --> 00:53:19,460 Who already had a card that popped. 1184 00:53:19,460 --> 00:53:22,180 Oh, you're dead. 1185 00:53:22,180 --> 00:53:23,180 Yeah. 1186 00:53:23,180 --> 00:53:25,180 You're more talented than me. 1187 00:53:25,180 --> 00:53:28,300 My flip, flip, flip, it flips right out. 1188 00:53:28,300 --> 00:53:29,300 It'll fall on the floor. 1189 00:53:29,300 --> 00:53:30,300 Also my lap. 1190 00:53:30,300 --> 00:53:31,500 It's crazy. 1191 00:53:31,500 --> 00:53:32,500 People have seen it. 1192 00:53:32,500 --> 00:53:34,220 They're like, oh, my stars. 1193 00:53:34,220 --> 00:53:36,060 That's crazy how fast that comes through. 1194 00:53:36,060 --> 00:53:38,140 And it's usually two, three in. 1195 00:53:38,140 --> 00:53:39,140 And I got a card. 1196 00:53:39,140 --> 00:53:40,140 Oh, I love that. 1197 00:53:40,140 --> 00:53:41,140 Yeah. 1198 00:53:41,140 --> 00:53:42,140 That happens to me sometimes. 1199 00:53:42,140 --> 00:53:45,780 I don't think of somebody during the day too, like my stepdaughter down to San Diego. 1200 00:53:45,780 --> 00:53:49,420 I'll be thinking of her and I'll be like, oh, I got a full record card, like immediately. 1201 00:53:49,420 --> 00:53:54,500 And I'll go do her and send the card and send a picture of the book. 1202 00:53:54,500 --> 00:53:57,060 And she goes, you have zero idea right now. 1203 00:53:57,060 --> 00:53:59,620 How flip and much I needed to hear those words. 1204 00:53:59,620 --> 00:54:03,860 Like, it is always spot on and try to on Facebook every Saturday. 1205 00:54:03,860 --> 00:54:07,380 I pull, I put out three cards and I put them upside down. 1206 00:54:07,380 --> 00:54:11,980 And I say, pick one that you're drawn to from just the energy. 1207 00:54:11,980 --> 00:54:16,060 And then on Sunday, generally, I turn it around and I take a picture of it and I give 1208 00:54:16,060 --> 00:54:18,340 the message down below. 1209 00:54:18,340 --> 00:54:26,260 I tell you, almost every single person that ever partakes in that, they're like, it's 1210 00:54:26,260 --> 00:54:29,460 like spot on me for this, what's going on this weekend, what's going on my life when 1211 00:54:29,460 --> 00:54:31,500 I'm anticipating tomorrow blah, blah, blah, blah. 1212 00:54:31,500 --> 00:54:32,900 This is like, how was that so? 1213 00:54:32,900 --> 00:54:34,660 And it's just like, because you drew it. 1214 00:54:34,660 --> 00:54:35,660 Yeah. 1215 00:54:35,660 --> 00:54:36,660 You felt the energy. 1216 00:54:36,660 --> 00:54:37,660 You felt the energy. 1217 00:54:37,660 --> 00:54:38,660 You went to it. 1218 00:54:38,660 --> 00:54:41,340 So we have more power than we know. 1219 00:54:41,340 --> 00:54:44,500 We need to realize that we do have a lot of power. 1220 00:54:44,500 --> 00:54:45,500 Everybody has this gift. 1221 00:54:45,500 --> 00:54:46,500 It's just act upon it. 1222 00:54:46,500 --> 00:54:47,500 Yeah. 1223 00:54:47,500 --> 00:54:50,940 We're all connected. 1224 00:54:50,940 --> 00:54:52,980 So we all obviously have the same gifts. 1225 00:54:52,980 --> 00:54:57,540 We just have it in different levels and different ways because some of us actually study 1226 00:54:57,540 --> 00:54:59,780 it and move forward with it. 1227 00:54:59,780 --> 00:55:03,580 I mean, I decided to practice it as soon as it started becoming more real like that one 1228 00:55:03,580 --> 00:55:05,460 day with my daughter, Shron Katie. 1229 00:55:05,460 --> 00:55:09,180 It was like, well, I guess this is what I am now. 1230 00:55:09,180 --> 00:55:13,460 So they're to get on the ball and start doing it. 1231 00:55:13,460 --> 00:55:15,660 I guess this is my life now. 1232 00:55:15,660 --> 00:55:18,580 You're like, you know, hard to just a date when you're in medium. 1233 00:55:18,580 --> 00:55:19,580 Oh my gosh. 1234 00:55:19,580 --> 00:55:20,580 I bet. 1235 00:55:20,580 --> 00:55:22,020 I could write a book on that. 1236 00:55:22,020 --> 00:55:23,620 Oh my gosh. 1237 00:55:23,620 --> 00:55:27,300 My current husband, we've been together for four years now. 1238 00:55:27,300 --> 00:55:31,660 When we went our first date a little over four years ago, he was going to be my last date. 1239 00:55:31,660 --> 00:55:32,740 I put out to the universe. 1240 00:55:32,740 --> 00:55:34,260 I don't want to date anymore. 1241 00:55:34,260 --> 00:55:36,980 If this is the one, make it happen otherwise, I'm done. 1242 00:55:36,980 --> 00:55:38,540 And he was the one. 1243 00:55:38,540 --> 00:55:40,740 And he had said, he pretty much said the same thing. 1244 00:55:40,740 --> 00:55:41,740 He was like, feeling the same way. 1245 00:55:41,740 --> 00:55:43,860 He was just like, I hate this dating stuff. 1246 00:55:43,860 --> 00:55:44,860 It's just, yeah. 1247 00:55:44,860 --> 00:55:48,180 This is too hard, especially when you're in your 50s or we were both in our late 40s. 1248 00:55:48,180 --> 00:55:49,420 I think he just turned 50. 1249 00:55:49,420 --> 00:55:50,940 I was turning 50. 1250 00:55:50,940 --> 00:55:55,940 And so he started talking about his past and this and that. 1251 00:55:55,940 --> 00:55:57,420 And I was like, thank you for sharing. 1252 00:55:57,420 --> 00:55:59,540 That is such a hard thing to share. 1253 00:55:59,540 --> 00:56:01,140 And I said, can I share something about me? 1254 00:56:01,140 --> 00:56:02,140 He said, sure. 1255 00:56:02,140 --> 00:56:08,180 I said on the medium and he goes, oh, you look more like a small. 1256 00:56:08,180 --> 00:56:09,980 Where I fell in love with him that night. 1257 00:56:09,980 --> 00:56:10,980 Oh, good answer. 1258 00:56:10,980 --> 00:56:11,980 Good answer. 1259 00:56:11,980 --> 00:56:12,980 Good answer. 1260 00:56:12,980 --> 00:56:14,980 And I go, do you know what a medium is? 1261 00:56:14,980 --> 00:56:19,420 And he goes, not particularly, but I didn't want to insult you. 1262 00:56:19,420 --> 00:56:20,420 You look like a small. 1263 00:56:20,420 --> 00:56:21,820 That is so freaking cute. 1264 00:56:21,820 --> 00:56:24,540 That is because I wasn't trying to be cute. 1265 00:56:24,540 --> 00:56:26,460 It just felt right to say it. 1266 00:56:26,460 --> 00:56:27,460 Oh my gosh. 1267 00:56:27,460 --> 00:56:29,780 And I absolutely was falling in love with him that night. 1268 00:56:29,780 --> 00:56:30,780 It was so funny. 1269 00:56:30,780 --> 00:56:32,420 I thought it was so sweet. 1270 00:56:32,420 --> 00:56:33,820 Oh my goodness. 1271 00:56:33,820 --> 00:56:37,220 So I did have a card pop out. 1272 00:56:37,220 --> 00:56:40,660 So I was, you know, doing shopping and it popped out. 1273 00:56:40,660 --> 00:56:41,660 Nice. 1274 00:56:41,660 --> 00:56:42,660 It was authentic. 1275 00:56:42,660 --> 00:56:44,780 I love it. 1276 00:56:44,780 --> 00:56:46,020 I love it. 1277 00:56:46,020 --> 00:56:50,980 Which I feel like totally relates to what we were talking about today. 1278 00:56:50,980 --> 00:56:51,980 Definitely. 1279 00:56:51,980 --> 00:56:57,260 So I'm going to go to the little page here and see what it says. 1280 00:56:57,260 --> 00:56:59,780 So these have a quote in here. 1281 00:56:59,780 --> 00:57:01,940 So it says authentic. 1282 00:57:01,940 --> 00:57:05,660 The privilege of a lifetime is to become who you truly are. 1283 00:57:05,660 --> 00:57:07,580 CJ Young. 1284 00:57:07,580 --> 00:57:08,980 I love that. 1285 00:57:08,980 --> 00:57:09,980 Yes. 1286 00:57:09,980 --> 00:57:11,220 This is so perfect. 1287 00:57:11,220 --> 00:57:12,220 I love it. 1288 00:57:12,220 --> 00:57:17,500 So true because, you know, to be your authentic self and really push forward. 1289 00:57:17,500 --> 00:57:21,900 And if you know you have a gift and you want to do something in life, if you don't use 1290 00:57:21,900 --> 00:57:24,780 it, it's just like wasting this lifetime of this time. 1291 00:57:24,780 --> 00:57:28,420 You need to be able to do things like, like I said, I'm very drawn to helping children 1292 00:57:28,420 --> 00:57:29,420 and this and that. 1293 00:57:29,420 --> 00:57:33,300 I feel like I was supposed to be here to help with that. 1294 00:57:33,300 --> 00:57:38,260 It's like that is a huge purpose of mine and giving children a voice. 1295 00:57:38,260 --> 00:57:41,820 That's actually my next book I'm working on. 1296 00:57:41,820 --> 00:57:44,140 And so it's really important to me. 1297 00:57:44,140 --> 00:57:49,100 So you've got to take what you already are feeling and then you've got to push forward. 1298 00:57:49,100 --> 00:57:53,300 Even if you do it in such a small way or a very magnified way, does it matter? 1299 00:57:53,300 --> 00:57:54,300 You still use it. 1300 00:57:54,300 --> 00:57:55,300 Yeah. 1301 00:57:55,300 --> 00:57:58,620 You know, like it's help people, even if you just fall into your time and you do this, 1302 00:57:58,620 --> 00:58:00,980 da da da da, you're using that gift. 1303 00:58:00,980 --> 00:58:05,700 You're helping develop something inside of you and others and that's really what being 1304 00:58:05,700 --> 00:58:06,700 authentic is. 1305 00:58:06,700 --> 00:58:07,700 Yeah. 1306 00:58:07,700 --> 00:58:08,700 And start small. 1307 00:58:08,700 --> 00:58:09,700 Don't put any pressure on it. 1308 00:58:09,700 --> 00:58:10,700 Certainly. 1309 00:58:10,700 --> 00:58:16,700 There's times like, I mean, some days, some months are just reading after reading after reading 1310 00:58:16,700 --> 00:58:21,740 after reading and then other months it's like really slow and I take pride in that I take. 1311 00:58:21,740 --> 00:58:23,340 I'm like, oh thank god it's slow right now. 1312 00:58:23,340 --> 00:58:27,780 I can breathe again for a little while and I kind of look forward to the down moments. 1313 00:58:27,780 --> 00:58:30,620 And then there's sometimes I feel like I don't want to do this anymore. 1314 00:58:30,620 --> 00:58:35,140 I'm too busy or this is going on and I just remember and I go back and I'm like, no, 1315 00:58:35,140 --> 00:58:36,140 I'm supposed to do this. 1316 00:58:36,140 --> 00:58:39,820 It's just that means life is talking to me right now and I need to step back a little bit. 1317 00:58:39,820 --> 00:58:42,180 And I'm in a step back period right now. 1318 00:58:42,180 --> 00:58:43,180 It's been a busy year. 1319 00:58:43,180 --> 00:58:44,700 We've had a lot of losses here. 1320 00:58:44,700 --> 00:58:46,500 I've lost, follow my mom. 1321 00:58:46,500 --> 00:58:51,980 My nephew, my whole thing with my daughter having the baby, all these things came up and 1322 00:58:51,980 --> 00:58:54,660 said, just hold them out of time. 1323 00:58:54,660 --> 00:58:55,660 That's just been since May. 1324 00:58:55,660 --> 00:58:59,980 And it's only in October and it's just was one thing after that. 1325 00:58:59,980 --> 00:59:01,740 I haven't had a lot of time to breathe. 1326 00:59:01,740 --> 00:59:06,340 And so stepping back from what your gift is is, okay, it doesn't mean you're never going 1327 00:59:06,340 --> 00:59:07,340 to do it again. 1328 00:59:07,340 --> 00:59:08,940 It just means you need a breather. 1329 00:59:08,940 --> 00:59:09,940 We're only human. 1330 00:59:09,940 --> 00:59:11,340 We're in this body. 1331 00:59:11,340 --> 00:59:12,500 We need to take care of this body. 1332 00:59:12,500 --> 00:59:14,540 Otherwise we can't do what we're doing. 1333 00:59:14,540 --> 00:59:15,540 Exactly. 1334 00:59:15,540 --> 00:59:17,180 That's really important. 1335 00:59:17,180 --> 00:59:20,020 So my card would love. 1336 00:59:20,020 --> 00:59:21,980 My card was take back your power. 1337 00:59:21,980 --> 00:59:23,460 Oh, I love that. 1338 00:59:23,460 --> 00:59:25,620 These like totally go together. 1339 00:59:25,620 --> 00:59:32,220 Black, it mine doesn't have a short little thing, but the action card, the action at the end 1340 00:59:32,220 --> 00:59:36,860 is use the symbol of the water lily as encouragement to speak your truth and acknowledge 1341 00:59:36,860 --> 00:59:38,020 how you really feel. 1342 00:59:38,020 --> 00:59:43,580 When you speak up and honor your soul, if you don't speak up and stay underwater, you 1343 00:59:43,580 --> 00:59:45,620 cannot shine your true light. 1344 00:59:45,620 --> 00:59:47,620 Oh, that's so beautiful. 1345 00:59:47,620 --> 00:59:49,620 Oh, then tick. 1346 00:59:49,620 --> 00:59:50,620 Seriously. 1347 00:59:50,620 --> 00:59:51,620 Okay, easy. 1348 00:59:51,620 --> 00:59:52,620 This has more to it. 1349 00:59:52,620 --> 00:59:55,980 It has a whole little page and I think I should read it now. 1350 00:59:55,980 --> 00:59:56,980 You should. 1351 00:59:56,980 --> 00:59:57,980 You should. 1352 00:59:57,980 --> 00:59:58,980 Yeah, mine has a whole page. 1353 00:59:58,980 --> 00:59:59,980 I just said the last part too. 1354 00:59:59,980 --> 01:00:00,980 Oh, okay. 1355 01:00:00,980 --> 01:00:01,980 Yeah, let's see. 1356 01:00:01,980 --> 01:00:02,980 Okay. 1357 01:00:02,980 --> 01:00:07,100 So the keywords are shed and brace and true begin to peel away your layers. 1358 01:00:07,100 --> 01:00:13,220 Try to reverse and go back from adulthood to childhood to discover your authentic self. 1359 01:00:13,220 --> 01:00:18,860 Unfortunately, society can influence us slowly molding us into cookie cutter humans. 1360 01:00:18,860 --> 01:00:23,660 By the time we reach adulthood, we have often lost sight of our genuine selves. 1361 01:00:23,660 --> 01:00:29,700 Your peer and raw being is safely tucked away in your deepest core where you protect it 1362 01:00:29,700 --> 01:00:31,020 from others. 1363 01:00:31,020 --> 01:00:38,580 Be brave and do not let others unnecessarily influence you, your beliefs, values and opinions. 1364 01:00:38,580 --> 01:00:39,900 Stay true to yourself. 1365 01:00:39,900 --> 01:00:43,060 Embrace your private thoughts and entertain your passions. 1366 01:00:43,060 --> 01:00:44,060 Oh, my God. 1367 01:00:44,060 --> 01:00:48,180 Celebrate all that you have learned from your life's experiences. 1368 01:00:48,180 --> 01:00:52,500 Carry your own unique and individual torch high with pride. 1369 01:00:52,500 --> 01:00:54,460 Oh, yeah. 1370 01:00:54,460 --> 01:00:59,700 And the intention says, like go of the facade, you may be wearing to please others. 1371 01:00:59,700 --> 01:01:03,980 Purify, feel your freedom and embrace your true self. 1372 01:01:03,980 --> 01:01:04,980 Wow. 1373 01:01:04,980 --> 01:01:05,980 Wow. 1374 01:01:05,980 --> 01:01:06,980 Wow. 1375 01:01:06,980 --> 01:01:09,100 It likes to talk to me about tracks like five times. 1376 01:01:09,100 --> 01:01:10,980 I'm like, whoa, whoa. 1377 01:01:10,980 --> 01:01:16,260 It's so true and it's taking back the power card that I pulled is so similar that authentic 1378 01:01:16,260 --> 01:01:18,260 self. 1379 01:01:18,260 --> 01:01:22,780 I'll read a little bit more to the water lily because it's a water lily on there. 1380 01:01:22,780 --> 01:01:24,020 Oh, I love that. 1381 01:01:24,020 --> 01:01:27,660 The water lily is an ancient symbol that signifies hope, rebirth and purification. 1382 01:01:27,660 --> 01:01:31,660 It represents your earth bound human self reaching for the light on this card. 1383 01:01:31,660 --> 01:01:35,220 The lily roots are very deep in the mud, which symbolizes your earth life. 1384 01:01:35,220 --> 01:01:39,540 The beautiful flowers emerge from the water and reach towards the sky, embodying your 1385 01:01:39,540 --> 01:01:41,740 yearning to connect with your higher self. 1386 01:01:41,740 --> 01:01:45,460 In this image, the woman's soul is being tethered by pillars because she is not expressing 1387 01:01:45,460 --> 01:01:46,460 her needs. 1388 01:01:46,460 --> 01:01:47,460 Stop being authentic. 1389 01:01:47,460 --> 01:01:48,460 Wow. 1390 01:01:48,460 --> 01:01:53,020 Our people and herself small can be hesitancy to speak your truth. 1391 01:01:53,020 --> 01:01:57,620 Instead, you say silent in an effort to keep the peace and minimize conflict. 1392 01:01:57,620 --> 01:02:01,740 Speaking up means being true to yourself and taking back your power. 1393 01:02:01,740 --> 01:02:05,580 Maybe you are scared of making a mistake of making some changes or finding yourself alone. 1394 01:02:05,580 --> 01:02:08,860 The taking back your power card appears when you need to say something you've been wishing 1395 01:02:08,860 --> 01:02:10,740 to verbalize for a long time. 1396 01:02:10,740 --> 01:02:12,220 Remember who you truly are. 1397 01:02:12,220 --> 01:02:16,660 For your soul knows that if you speak your truth, you will not only survive, but will 1398 01:02:16,660 --> 01:02:17,660 thrive. 1399 01:02:17,660 --> 01:02:22,220 Express how you feel even if you are scared or you run the risk of losing your spirit. 1400 01:02:22,220 --> 01:02:23,220 Woo! 1401 01:02:23,220 --> 01:02:24,220 Wow. 1402 01:02:24,220 --> 01:02:25,220 Those are good. 1403 01:02:25,220 --> 01:02:31,180 How did we get such connected cards and how far apart are we? 1404 01:02:31,180 --> 01:02:32,180 Right. 1405 01:02:32,180 --> 01:02:33,180 Isn't that crazy? 1406 01:02:33,180 --> 01:02:34,180 Yeah. 1407 01:02:34,180 --> 01:02:39,220 And we're really talking about that about being true to who we are and being honest about, 1408 01:02:39,220 --> 01:02:43,340 you know, being a medium and being who I am and helping kids speak their truth. 1409 01:02:43,340 --> 01:02:45,860 It's like, that's the authentic. 1410 01:02:45,860 --> 01:02:47,500 I want kids to be authentic. 1411 01:02:47,500 --> 01:02:51,700 I want little girls, little boys to grow up and just be their authentic self no matter what 1412 01:02:51,700 --> 01:02:52,700 it is. 1413 01:02:52,700 --> 01:02:57,740 You know, giving our little ones the power, I think, is the most important thing we can do 1414 01:02:57,740 --> 01:02:58,740 for them right now. 1415 01:02:58,740 --> 01:03:00,380 I love that. 1416 01:03:00,380 --> 01:03:04,220 And I also think we always say we do tarot on the show. 1417 01:03:04,220 --> 01:03:06,340 You know, we're a true crime and paranormal podcast. 1418 01:03:06,340 --> 01:03:12,380 So it kind of goes tarot with the paranormal side, but we don't really see that a lot, but 1419 01:03:12,380 --> 01:03:16,900 everyone always asks why we want to incorporate the tarot readings just to be unique. 1420 01:03:16,900 --> 01:03:20,860 But it was mostly just because that's just who we are. 1421 01:03:20,860 --> 01:03:24,820 So we just want to do what we do every day. 1422 01:03:24,820 --> 01:03:25,820 Yes. 1423 01:03:25,820 --> 01:03:27,340 You want to do what makes you feel right. 1424 01:03:27,340 --> 01:03:30,820 You also want to have an audience and you need to be able to relate to many people. 1425 01:03:30,820 --> 01:03:35,540 And, you know, like, you know, with me working with the light, I can't help but the dark 1426 01:03:35,540 --> 01:03:40,300 tries to get me sometimes, you know, I don't sometimes have a choice. 1427 01:03:40,300 --> 01:03:44,500 But, you know, we got to remember the light and the dark are always there. 1428 01:03:44,500 --> 01:03:46,660 They're best of each other. 1429 01:03:46,660 --> 01:03:50,380 But so yeah, I stick with the white light, but look at the dark stuff. 1430 01:03:50,380 --> 01:03:51,780 So it tries to sneak in. 1431 01:03:51,780 --> 01:03:53,260 I can't help that. 1432 01:03:53,260 --> 01:03:54,260 Yeah. 1433 01:03:54,260 --> 01:03:58,740 We all just have to be strong and remember that we have the power we can do. 1434 01:03:58,740 --> 01:03:59,740 Yes. 1435 01:03:59,740 --> 01:04:00,740 Absolutely. 1436 01:04:00,740 --> 01:04:06,900 The power is truly the most important gift that we can give them because that will last 1437 01:04:06,900 --> 01:04:07,900 a lifetime. 1438 01:04:07,900 --> 01:04:12,660 It's like the old saying with teacher man to fish, you know, so he can he can fend for 1439 01:04:12,660 --> 01:04:14,260 himself for lifetime. 1440 01:04:14,260 --> 01:04:15,260 It's the same thing. 1441 01:04:15,260 --> 01:04:19,460 Giving somebody the power to be able to protect themselves. 1442 01:04:19,460 --> 01:04:26,860 I've done many, many, many little small clips and I even did a class one time about protecting 1443 01:04:26,860 --> 01:04:29,260 yourself, protecting your energy and how to do it. 1444 01:04:29,260 --> 01:04:34,420 One of the main things is to keep the light around you and that is taking care of yourself, 1445 01:04:34,420 --> 01:04:42,540 self-care wise, going into nature and really absorbing nature, eating well, meditating daily, 1446 01:04:42,540 --> 01:04:46,660 keeping those vibration levels up because that when I realized that that dark entity had 1447 01:04:46,660 --> 01:04:51,060 gone through and growled in my ear, I realized that my vibrational level must have been so 1448 01:04:51,060 --> 01:04:54,260 low that he's like, oh, I'm going to match you. 1449 01:04:54,260 --> 01:04:58,300 You're right at my level now because I was so down deep and dark. 1450 01:04:58,300 --> 01:05:04,140 And what I realized at that time too is with my daughter being in the hospital, I was having 1451 01:05:04,140 --> 01:05:09,500 so much fear because of what happened before to her losing that baby and what it was going 1452 01:05:09,500 --> 01:05:10,500 to do to her. 1453 01:05:10,500 --> 01:05:18,420 And so my granddaughter actually stepped in one night when all this was going on and she 1454 01:05:18,420 --> 01:05:24,780 had me remember, grandma, you can't have faith in fear in your heart at the same time. 1455 01:05:24,780 --> 01:05:26,660 Figure out which one you want and keep that one. 1456 01:05:26,660 --> 01:05:31,300 And so my daughter was actually in the ER when this was happening right before she got 1457 01:05:31,300 --> 01:05:33,140 put in the hospital for 30 days. 1458 01:05:33,140 --> 01:05:38,940 She was in the ER for a scare and that's when my granddaughter came to me and she goes, grandma 1459 01:05:38,940 --> 01:05:41,860 she's going to be okay. 1460 01:05:41,860 --> 01:05:44,500 I told her I'm going to have a brother and he's going to be okay. 1461 01:05:44,500 --> 01:05:49,500 And so I had to take that fear out of my heart and I had to replace it with that faith 1462 01:05:49,500 --> 01:05:50,740 and I just knew. 1463 01:05:50,740 --> 01:05:53,340 And ten minutes later she called and she says, oh, I'm good. 1464 01:05:53,340 --> 01:05:55,220 They're sending me home. 1465 01:05:55,220 --> 01:05:57,820 And I was like, okay. 1466 01:05:57,820 --> 01:05:59,860 Thank you, Adalie. 1467 01:05:59,860 --> 01:06:01,100 Thank you. 1468 01:06:01,100 --> 01:06:06,860 Also, I noticed while you were saying that this kind of, it's like a pink moon and it kind 1469 01:06:06,860 --> 01:06:11,060 of looks like, you know, the little, what are those called above baby's cribs? 1470 01:06:11,060 --> 01:06:12,860 Oh, the little mobile. 1471 01:06:12,860 --> 01:06:13,860 Yeah. 1472 01:06:13,860 --> 01:06:14,860 It looks like a mobile up there. 1473 01:06:14,860 --> 01:06:15,860 He loves mobile. 1474 01:06:15,860 --> 01:06:16,860 Oh my God. 1475 01:06:16,860 --> 01:06:19,780 He just, there looks at those mobiles. 1476 01:06:19,780 --> 01:06:22,700 He's, I swear, he sees a sister when I'm sure. 1477 01:06:22,700 --> 01:06:24,940 The face is going everywhere. 1478 01:06:24,940 --> 01:06:25,940 He looks over. 1479 01:06:25,940 --> 01:06:30,260 They have a memorial stand in the corner and he dares at that memorial stand ever since he 1480 01:06:30,260 --> 01:06:31,260 was two months old. 1481 01:06:31,260 --> 01:06:32,940 He just stares at it, stares at it. 1482 01:06:32,940 --> 01:06:39,660 And I'm like, my God, he sees her and he's done the whole, what do you do around me? 1483 01:06:39,660 --> 01:06:41,660 And I, God, I love seeing that. 1484 01:06:41,660 --> 01:06:45,540 I'm like, it's so beautiful. 1485 01:06:45,540 --> 01:06:46,540 It's so beautiful. 1486 01:06:46,540 --> 01:06:48,540 It is amazing. 1487 01:06:48,540 --> 01:06:52,660 It's truly amazing to be able to do a reading for somebody who's lost a baby. 1488 01:06:52,660 --> 01:06:57,340 To me has been one of the greatest gifts of being a medium because they get to not only 1489 01:06:57,340 --> 01:07:02,580 know that their baby stays with them in spirit and is always with them, but I mean, I got names 1490 01:07:02,580 --> 01:07:05,300 and I remember saying one time I was like doing one. 1491 01:07:05,300 --> 01:07:11,580 I'm like, she wants to say Lily, Lily, Lily, I keep on and she was just like, she goes, 1492 01:07:11,580 --> 01:07:14,620 that was supposed to be our little girl's name when we changed the name. 1493 01:07:14,620 --> 01:07:15,620 And you wait at that. 1494 01:07:15,620 --> 01:07:18,380 They're like, they're like all over. 1495 01:07:18,380 --> 01:07:23,100 You're trying to like, she'll know if you say Lily. 1496 01:07:23,100 --> 01:07:28,220 And so I love it because they get that immediately crocodile tears are going, but it's of joy. 1497 01:07:28,220 --> 01:07:29,700 And so it's like they aren't with me, huh? 1498 01:07:29,700 --> 01:07:31,940 I'm like, they're with you and don't worry. 1499 01:07:31,940 --> 01:07:33,180 There's another baby coming out. 1500 01:07:33,180 --> 01:07:35,220 I usually know and there's another baby coming. 1501 01:07:35,220 --> 01:07:39,980 There's been some tragedy and stuff like that with some, you know, cases, but I only feel 1502 01:07:39,980 --> 01:07:44,660 what I feel like there's another baby coming that I can't always know exactly. 1503 01:07:44,660 --> 01:07:48,140 I'm not a, you know, not a fortune teller. 1504 01:07:48,140 --> 01:07:56,180 But I feel like these pregnant, I've definitely felt that I've even guessed a baby name one 1505 01:07:56,180 --> 01:07:57,180 time. 1506 01:07:57,180 --> 01:07:58,180 Oh my gosh. 1507 01:07:58,180 --> 01:08:02,980 My friend of mine's her sister was pregnant and they just found out that it was a girl and 1508 01:08:02,980 --> 01:08:04,500 they had a girl name picked out. 1509 01:08:04,500 --> 01:08:06,780 Nobody knew the name and she was like, touch my belly. 1510 01:08:06,780 --> 01:08:07,780 And I'm like, okay. 1511 01:08:07,780 --> 01:08:08,780 And she goes, see if you know. 1512 01:08:08,780 --> 01:08:10,540 And I'm like, this isn't going to work. 1513 01:08:10,540 --> 01:08:12,540 I don't know what you're talking about. 1514 01:08:12,540 --> 01:08:13,540 There's a girl. 1515 01:08:13,540 --> 01:08:15,620 I'm like, you're not, I'm not going to know this. 1516 01:08:15,620 --> 01:08:17,340 And I'm like, oh my god. 1517 01:08:17,340 --> 01:08:19,180 I started to get the letters. 1518 01:08:19,180 --> 01:08:20,180 I started to get the letters. 1519 01:08:20,180 --> 01:08:21,900 And I'm like, I don't want to say it. 1520 01:08:21,900 --> 01:08:22,900 She was just saying it. 1521 01:08:22,900 --> 01:08:23,900 Just say it. 1522 01:08:23,900 --> 01:08:27,660 And I said the name and she was just like, no. 1523 01:08:27,660 --> 01:08:32,500 And everybody's like in the family because only two people knew her and her husband, nobody 1524 01:08:32,500 --> 01:08:33,500 else. 1525 01:08:33,500 --> 01:08:34,500 Like, is that her name? 1526 01:08:34,500 --> 01:08:36,300 They're like, oh my god. 1527 01:08:36,300 --> 01:08:38,300 And I want that. 1528 01:08:38,300 --> 01:08:39,540 I don't think it was a baby telling me. 1529 01:08:39,540 --> 01:08:41,540 I think it was grandma telling me. 1530 01:08:41,540 --> 01:08:43,380 Grandma, I think spirit was telling me. 1531 01:08:43,380 --> 01:08:45,460 It could have been the baby, but I don't know. 1532 01:08:45,460 --> 01:08:48,180 I don't know how that works. 1533 01:08:48,180 --> 01:08:50,220 But the babies are just amazing. 1534 01:08:50,220 --> 01:08:51,220 Baby energy really is. 1535 01:08:51,220 --> 01:08:54,420 I just want people to know their babies don't leave them. 1536 01:08:54,420 --> 01:08:56,460 Their babies don't leave them. 1537 01:08:56,460 --> 01:08:57,660 That's why I wrote that book. 1538 01:08:57,660 --> 01:09:00,940 Their babies don't leave them. 1539 01:09:00,940 --> 01:09:05,900 Thank you so much for sharing all of those very personal stories with us. 1540 01:09:05,900 --> 01:09:07,420 I'm an open book, literally. 1541 01:09:07,420 --> 01:09:10,140 And that's why, my life, I'm an open book. 1542 01:09:10,140 --> 01:09:15,420 And I feel like, if I share my story with others, then they won't be. 1543 01:09:15,420 --> 01:09:17,540 So apprehensive of sharing theirs. 1544 01:09:17,540 --> 01:09:18,740 And we are all of one. 1545 01:09:18,740 --> 01:09:21,180 We're all supposed to be just, we're all connected. 1546 01:09:21,180 --> 01:09:23,420 Let's connect more, you know? 1547 01:09:23,420 --> 01:09:25,140 And that way they don't live in fear. 1548 01:09:25,140 --> 01:09:28,300 That's the last thing I want anybody to do is live in fear for the rest of their life in 1549 01:09:28,300 --> 01:09:29,300 this world. 1550 01:09:29,300 --> 01:09:30,300 It's not worth it. 1551 01:09:30,300 --> 01:09:31,300 It's too much time. 1552 01:09:31,300 --> 01:09:32,300 Takes too much energy. 1553 01:09:32,300 --> 01:09:33,300 Seriously. 1554 01:09:33,300 --> 01:09:34,300 Thank you so much. 1555 01:09:34,300 --> 01:09:38,780 Is there anything else that you wanted to talk about or share or plug? 1556 01:09:38,780 --> 01:09:42,300 My healingheartsmedium.com page. 1557 01:09:42,300 --> 01:09:47,740 That's my website, healingheartsmedium.com and Adalie the Angel Becomes a Sister. 1558 01:09:47,740 --> 01:09:49,140 It's on Amazon. 1559 01:09:49,140 --> 01:09:50,140 Perfect. 1560 01:09:50,140 --> 01:09:51,140 Yay, thank you so much. 1561 01:09:51,140 --> 01:09:53,140 I was so great to talk to you. 1562 01:09:53,140 --> 01:09:54,140 I was so great to talk to you. 1563 01:09:54,140 --> 01:09:55,980 I appreciate this time. 1564 01:09:55,980 --> 01:09:57,380 You have a wonderful afternoon. 1565 01:09:57,380 --> 01:09:58,380 You too. 1566 01:09:58,380 --> 01:09:59,980 Have a creepy ass day. 1567 01:09:59,980 --> 01:10:09,980 [Music] 1568 01:10:09,980 --> 01:10:19,980 [Music] 1569 01:10:19,980 --> 01:10:29,980 [Music] 1570 01:10:29,980 --> 01:10:33,980 [Music] 1571 01:10:33,980 --> 01:10:43,980 [Music]