Healing Hearts Medium: Past Lives, Protection, and Spirit Communication

0:00 [MUSIC] So I had a reading done for myself. I come another medium that knew nothing about me, nothing about my granddaughter. And she says, oh, your granddaughter in spirit, says, why haven't you written the book, grandma? I knew right then and there, I was supposed to write the book. And my daughter had no idea, wrote it. Started to write it, got a gal who did all the drawings, illustrations, and even had somebody to help me publish it. My daughter wasn't even pregnant yet. [MUSIC] Hi, Caitlyn.

0:40 Hi, Cassie. Hi, creepy people. Hello. If you're new to our creepy corner of the world, this is PNW Haunts and Homicides, where we chat about true crime, (pnwhauntsandhomicides.com) the paranormal, all things creepy and witchy, and otherworldly, sometimes just weird, also very weird. I'd like to add, but also from the Pacific Northwest. Yeah, sometimes it's a stretch, but that's our barogative. That's fine. Stretching is good for you. Stretching is so good for you. We also do another thing that is so good for you.

1:21 Tarot readings at the end of every episode helps us get a little more insight into our topics. It does. We love it. I think everyone loves it, to be honest. All of our guests so far have loved it, so that's what I'm going by. They have fun with it. And this particular guest that we have on today has her own Oracle deck, so we both pulled from an Oracle deck today. Hot damn. And sadly, Caitlyn won't be here, but she and all of our Patreon members can watch the video of my interview with Teresa on Patreon, where it's going to be posted. That's where it is. No where else. All right.

2:03 So today we are joined by Theresa Watson from Healing Hearts Medium. What kind of services do you offer, Theresa? I do readings on the phone or in person. I do Facebook and Zoom and all those. I do one hour readings. I also do mentorship for one hour or longer if people want. Oh, what's involved with the mentorship? Mentorship, I really love because I get to kind of make it all about them. What, where they're at in their skill level, if they're even at the beginning of the middle of the end or whatever it is. And I help them understand what gifts they have, what I experienced with the same gifts, or what friends of mine, just my experience of doing this for about nine years.

2:47 And really helping to understand where there are what their next step is. That's such a great resource for anyone who thinks they might be a medium. Yeah. It can be that or they could just say I see spirits and I don't know what to do about it. Or I'm having all this stuff happen in my house. What can I do about it? So it's just tailor-made to so many different subjects and said, "I want to be a medium." And are you the right person to teach me? Oh, that's amazing. Can you also write books as well, you're an author? I just wrote my first book and got it published this summer. It was something that was really special to me. My daughter lost my first grandbaby about two and a half years ago and she was seven months pregnant.

3:31 And so it was pretty traumatic for the family. And she wasn't sure if she wanted another baby. And my granddaughter, past kept on talking about my future grandson and said, "I'm going to have a brother. I'm going to have a brother." So I started to write it all down and I kept on looking like a book, like a children's story. And I'm like, "Okay, that's just too weird. I kept putting it aside because you get these visions and you just think I'm just crazy." And so I had a reading done for myself. I found another medium that you, nothing about me, nothing about my granddaughter. And she says, "Oh, your granddaughter in spirit says why haven't you written the book, grandma?" And I knew. Oh, right. That is so sweet. I knew right then and there. I was supposed to write the book.

4:12 So my daughter had no idea, wrote it, started to write it, got a gal who did all the drawings, illustrations, and even had somebody to help me publish it. My daughter was even pregnant yet. Oh, my goodness. Did she read the book? She got the book in July. She came out and she had a brand new baby boy in her arms when she read it. Oh, my gosh. Healthy, just like my granddaughter kept on telling me, "I'm going to have a baby brother. He's going to be fine. He's going to be healthy. Tell my mommy that. Tell them I'm on me that." It's a children's book about her being involved in the family still and all the things that she thinks her daughter's going to miss. She's not missing. She's still with him. It's just in a different way now.

4:53 My granddaughter's name was Adley, so I wrote the book as Adalie the Angel, Becomes a Sister. That is so beautiful. I personally know people who have lost children. So it's, oh my God, I can't even, I don't have kids and I just cannot even imagine. It's about the worst thing I think a family can experience. It was a labor of love and I meant it just for my daughter, but as I was writing it, I do a lot of readings for people who lost children because right after my granddaughter died, my daughter put my information into a support group and didn't tell me. And all of a sudden, all these women were getting in touch and contacting me about, "Will you do a reading for me?"

5:39 And I was like, "I'm like, there's a baby, there's a baby, there's a baby, must have been 25 readings in a row, there's a baby." And I told my daughter that I said, "Wow, it's just like baby after baby." She goes, "Oh, I forgot to tell you. I put your name inside of a group because so many people were getting ripped off my mediums and I knew that you wouldn't do that because I have 100% money back guarantee. And she knew I was valid, you know? I was going to be valid with that." And so my experience with that was going on. So I told people about the book. They're like, "Please write that book and please get me a copy. You don't know how much that would mean to me." And then I started realized, "Okay, this is more of a support book for other people, not just a book for my daughter." Yeah. So I ended up getting it published on Amazon instead of self publishing it and just keeping it as one book.

6:21 Oh, perfect. So we can find it on Amazon. Yes, yes. It's on Amazon. Adalie the Angel Becomes a Sister. Oh, that is so beautiful. I just feel like, obviously, you were meant to do this. Like this was your path, for sure. When did you know that you were on this path of being a medium? Definitely saw stuff as a child. Didn't understand it because I had zero support. I did not have the best support system growing up. Single mom, four kids. So I kind of mixed up in the chaos. I lived in San Diego. I was the only one that saw ghosts in the house and obviously it made me different. So I didn't want to be different.

7:01 So I just shut up. I didn't want to tell people what I saw. And so that kind of carried through until I was about 12 and I started to really start seeing them again, but mostly the intuition came. It was such such strong intuition. It scared people. It was like, please don't go there. Don't go. There's something bad's going to happen and then something bad happened. And so it was like, oh, okay, maybe we need to listen to her instead of ignoring her. Yeah. I was going to say, I hope people learn to listen and take that seriously. The only ones, the only one in my whole life that that never did. Was my now ex-husband. Three times I told them not to go to work. He got attacked by a pit bull. He got in a truck accident and he got hit by a tree.

7:42 What? You would think. After the first time that he would pay attention. But yeah, you would think that he took my feelings. It was like gut instinct. Like something bad's going to happen. They please don't leave the house. And I don't say that unless I really feel it, I would never scare someone on purpose. Yeah. That just that real gut instinct of, like my sweating profusely, I feel sick to my stomach. Please don't leave the house today. And if I tell people that, I can hopefully listen to my daughters do. Good. Good. So I've always experienced this, but I've been experiencing it just like a ton. Deja Vu. Oh, yes. How do you feel about it? Do you have an explanation for it?

8:24 I get Deja Vu a lot. And the way that I feel it, it's like we had a thought about it before and then it happens. And it's almost like a, oh, this is supposed to happen like you're on the right track. That's what it's always felt for me. Like you're on the right track with that train the thought or what's going on. And so it's like where you're supposed to be, where you're supposed to be at that point of time. There's okay. Take it. And I don't know why I think that no one's ever told me that. I never read it that way. It's just the way that internally feels. That's what it feels like for me, too. Yeah. That's awesome. We feel the same way. We just have confirmation each. Yes, it's very validating. It is. I love that. And then I do have another question because it's something that has come up to and just kind of random things I've been experiencing.

9:11 I haven't really talked a lot about it. But past lives, do you ever do past life readings for anybody? I have not, but they've come up in readings like I'll feel something very strong. Like I feel like and I'll get a vision. So really small things, but it's definitely something I'm going to put some energy into the new year because I really feel like I have that ability. I've had a past life regression myself with from Brian Weiss, Dr. Brian Weiss. Famous, yes. I went to one of his very large gatherings up in, I think it was Portland. My sister came and joined me and we went up there and I had a really fantastic past life regression. And so when I saw that in my head, that's what I see when I'm doing reading.

9:54 So I know they're real. Okay. Like, oh, I wasn't thinking about that. It was just what came in. And so it's just no different really than doing a reading. And I think we're so connected to our past and it just happens to be, you know, it's all in there. So whether I'm reading for somebody right there or reading for somebody that is from hundreds of years ago, it doesn't matter. It's the same soul. Wow. So that's how I see it. That is so cool to me. I don't know why I've been so interested in that lately. And I haven't done any past life like meditations or anything like that. So I feel like I need to start doing that. Yeah. You know, I think what happens is it really helps show where you are now from, can I share my past life experience very shortly?

10:39 Yes. If you want to. So when he put us kind of in that meditative state when I was there years ago, gosh, this must have been about six years ago. I just visioned like it came so fast and it left so quickly that it was like, ah, but I was in the little house in the prairie days. Is it about the only way I can explain it? Okay. I get it. It looked like that in the background with the hills and, you know, and I always loved little house in the prairie. And so it was like, that's like, oh, I was, I was very drawn to that era. My mom said I was like glue to the TV as soon as it came on. And I had a bonnet on my head. I was a mom.

11:19 I had two daughters, which I do in this lifetime too. I have two daughters. One was in my arms. She was a baby. She had a bonnet on too. We all were wearing white linen cloth outfits. The other daughter had the bonnet on as well. And she was right beside me. We were running. And I was like, run faster, run faster to my little girl. And I couldn't hold her and the newborn too. And we were just running as fast as we can. My heart was racing. I can feel it. I was like, you've had this overwhelming fear and I kept looking back. And when I looked back, I saw a man chasing us. In my mind, I knew he was a husband, husband in that era. But he was very mean, very angry. We were running from him to save our lives.

12:01 And he came upon us, grabbed me by the hair that was sticking out the bonnet and pulled me back through me on the ground, took our children out of my hands and sliced their fruits from me. And then when it didn't kill me, left me to live, so I had to witness it. And I just remember, that's why I'm a helicopter, mom. Yeah. Mediate knowledge. And I think that's a great thing about knowing about your past life. Mediate knowledge of why you do the things now that you do. Yeah. And so it was like, oh my gosh, I'm always worried about my daughter's safety. Both of them constantly, they're 25 and 29. You think I'd like slow down a little bit.

12:42 And nope, it's still there. Oh, man. That's like why I don't want to have kids, because I just know I would just be anxiety constantly. I feel like I just wouldn't be able to let it go. It is. It's one of those things that you have to have enough faith so that the fear can't come in when you're raising them and just, you know, and when you're done raising them, you just have to trust the universe to take care of them. And it means that we just don't have enough faith. It's like more fears coming in than the faith. And it's really hard to do that. It really is. I'm having my own battle right now and getting through a lot of fear of a lot of different things. So I think that's great.

13:22 Something that we don't work on enough and that brings, it comes up in everything we do. I still have fears about doing readings. I've probably done over 2,000 readings. And when you look on, like sometimes I have to remind myself, I'm real. I'm not an imposter. It's really hard because we just get that imposter syndrome, you know, really quickly. And I'll look back on my review sometime on my Facebook just to do. I have like over 100 of five stars. And I'm like that person loved me, that person, they've, I needed to hear that. They really, and so I have to remind myself and my fear still comes up right before every reading. I feel like my failure, my failure and what I realize it really is just because I want to be perfect and I can't be.

14:06 Exactly. And that causes anxiety. And so like I said, I have 100% money back in your tea. When I started reading, it's the first thing I tell them, like, if it doesn't go well, don't worry. I'm going to stop the reading within like 10 or 15 minutes. You don't owe me a thing or will reschedule. I'll either refund or reschedule. And that kind of draws my anxiety a little bit. So we got to find little ways that work for us to let that anxiety go. Like, why am I feeling this and what can I do to make sure it doesn't come back in again? But it's such a great way to combat other people's fear to coming in. And like they can let go of a little bit of that fear because yeah, definitely. And that's the first thing. And I felt that from spirit about a year ago.

14:47 It's just like, do this. And I was like, oh, okay. And I wrote it down. I'm like, oh, okay. And it made me feel better. I'm like, oh, I thought that. And so when I listened to spirit, they always direct me in the right place. I hope so. I know you said you don't like to scare people, but has anything really scary ever come up in someone's reading that you're like, ooh, I don't want to tell them. It kind of even scares me. I have not. I only asked for spirits of the white light. And I only asked for the highest and best good. I'll get warnings. And people can think that's frightening or the snap, but it's not. For example, I probably probably about four years ago.

15:28 I was doing a reading for a gal. And she just sat down and I went, ooh, your mother is not well. Like I felt it come over me so strongly. And I had to talk about her mother. And she goes, oh, my mom's been fine. And I go, they're really telling me you need to take her to the hospital. Like this needs to be addressed. And I was like, ooh, so I get like overheated and overwhelmed. And she called me a couple days later and said, I took my mom to the hospital. And she has stage four cancer. She has about a month to live. Wow. And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital. And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital. And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital. And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital.

16:12 And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital. And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital. And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital. And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital. And she has about a year and a half to go to the hospital. I get something what they call peekaboo's. Oh. Peekaboo's spirits. And it cracks the people up because what I'm seeing is they're a little behind me. And I see their head kind of down and shame. And they're looking around the corner like, is it okay? Peekaboo. Peekaboo and that's the feeling. Those are the ones that have a lot more shame associated with their life and their or their death. Some spirits that have committed people have committed suicide will sometimes be back there.

16:56 They've took responsibility for their own life, their own death. And then people who have sexually assaulted, busted, physical, physical hitting and stuff like that, they all these are coming up and they're behind me and they need permission to come through because I've got the are spirits of the white light. They're just in a lot more, you know, they're just learning. They're learning on the other side about what they left behind and they have a lot of shame left. And so I have to get permission to bring those people through. And 99.9% of the time people allow that to happen. First thing they want is to apologize, apologize, apologize, apologize.

17:37 I am so sorry for this and they're right on. They're like, they're talking about this, this, this and this and they're like, yep, yep, yep, yep. And they're like, thank you. I needed to hear that. Well, they didn't even, wow. They needed it. And that's the great thing about spirit. Spirit knows what we need. And so spirit will direct that whole thing. It's crazy. Yeah, I try to have to remind myself that all the time, like when there's something I'm not getting, that I want. And I'm like, uh, yes, it's not meant to be right now. Yeah. It's fine calm down. I always tell people, this isn't me doing it.

18:19 I'm just a conduit. I am that middle person. And so when people sit down for reading with me, I always tell them, if I don't do a great job, it's not you and it's not spirit. It's me. It's, I'm, we're a triangle and I'm not feeling well that day. I will literally cancel the reading if I don't feel great because part of the triangle, I have to feel good. I have to, I have to be in a good place mentally, physically and spiritually to be able to connect to that spirit and do a great job. Yeah. We've experienced that on the show because I told you we do tarot readings on, in every episode. Nice. So one of the episodes I was doing and I was coming off of COVID and I was still really sick.

18:59 Like I was whoo sweat and during the whole thing, I'm just not feeling good. And I pulled a card that was so opposite from the story. I was like, there's, this is an obvious sign that like something is wrong here and this is not the right card. And my co-host was like, well, I heard that when you're sick, your intuition or your psychic abilities might be blocked. And I was like, well, that's it. It's so true. Yeah. When I had COVID, the first thing I did was cancel all my readings for two weeks because I knew I would get the COVID brain, which I did. And with that COVID brain, it's like, you're still, spirit's still using me and I still have to process it and I have to use my brain to do it. A lot of people think, oh, we don't use my brain.

19:39 Like, no, I'm thinking and I'm talking. So my brain is being used. It's just a different part of my brain is being used. It's not my logical thinking. I don't do logical while I'm reading because this is not logical to freaking-- Yeah. --fair it's, you know? I always tell people, oh, there's nothing logical about speaking the spirit. So they don't use that part of it. And you've seen probably seen some of the mediums on TV that have gotten those little, you know, brain testing done. And the frontal lobe gets cleared out and kind of blue. It's almost like we're daydreaming when we're speaking. We're in kind of a dream state, but we're talking and we're very aware. Oh, that is cool. It's so cool. But it's so true because that's exactly how I feel.

20:20 I feel like I'm in a different plane for a little while, but I'm so very aware of everything that's going on. Wow. Do you lose a dream, too? I do have very lucid dreams. Not all the time, but I do when I do. It's like, whoa, that was so cool. Do you think you help people in your dreams? I have had so many people say that I come to them in their dreams, but I have no memory of it. They're like, you helped me in my dream last night. Like, are you kidding me? I've had at least three people tell me that like you visit me in my dream. You helped me through this and you helped me through that. I'm like, I was busy last night. I thought I was, you know, but apparently I know how to do this, but I had no memory of it whatsoever. That is really cool.

21:01 They were tapped into me. I was tapped into them. And I am connected to, you know, I think we're all connected, but I think I'm connected to certain people just a little bit more. And when they need me or I need them, I think that we're in our sleep state that we really do try to help each other. Why not, right? Right? We're not doing anything else. We need our bodies are what needs the rest, you know. We need our bodies need the sleep, but our spirit mind and our consciousness is going like, woo, you know, that was a place. That's what I feel like when I'm asleep, I feel like when I wake up, I've just been so active during the night and doing things and my doctor's like, it's probably because you're not sleeping well. And I'm like, I think it's, I think it's something more, but I don't know.

21:45 I love it. I love getting visits from spirit that are associated with me. My father-in-law just passed away last month. We just did a several yesterday. And my husband actually said, he visited him in a sleep the other night and gave him a hug. And not particularly spiritual, like what I do. He's more Christian-based religion, and which I have no problems with whoever wants to do what they want to do. I am completely open to anybody being who they need to be. This is our life, our choices. So he doesn't make fun of me. I will make fun of him because we're different. And he said, oh, my dad gave me the biggest hug last night. And I wanted to say, of course, he did. That's what spirit does.

22:26 You know, but I said, that's wonderful, honey. I'm so glad that you felt him. That's all that I, you just kind of have to stop sometimes. And I'm not here to convince people to believe what I believe. Yeah. You're just here to answer my questions and hope that someone will come along if they feel it. That's so true. I have a random question. Are you okay if I ask you like a personal question about one of my dreams? Absolutely. I don't know if you'll be able to answer it or not, but it was kind of weird. So I've had this recurring dream of a cemetery. And every time in there, I just, I love cemeteries anyway. But I just love this cemetery.

23:06 It's so beautiful and big. And then there's this beautiful building I go in and I can like research things. I don't ever remember what I've been researching. But apparently I go through and I research things. But the other night, I hadn't had this dream in a while. And I was in the car with some people and we were coming around to corner and also and I see the cemetery from like a different view because usually I'm in it. And I see like pulling up and I just knew it's this cemetery. And I was like, I'm home. And I woke up and I was like, that was really cool. Like a great feeling. But it was also really like creepy. Why am I saying I'm home in a cemetery. Yeah. Somehow or another, I feel the past life you were connected to a cemetery or something similar to that.

23:50 And you're just having kind of recall dreams, recall thoughts and stuff like that. So it's not a, it's not a coincidence that you like cemeteries. Okay. So I think you're connected to cemeteries. That's the first feeling that I got. Like you were connected to in some way. Cemeteries don't do anything for me. I don't get scared in them. I don't get happy in them. I don't get sad in them. I don't think of people being in them. I just see, I just feel, that's where all the dead bodies are. And I don't like cemeteries as far as not that I don't like cemeteries. I don't like the idea of being buried. I just want to be cremated and I don't want to be buried anywhere. And that's a personal thing because I don't want to take up space and on earth.

24:31 That's just my feelings of it because I feel like there's just not going to be enough room down the line. Everything is cemetery everywhere. And people are like weird about it. And I'm like, oh, we just got too many of them. I think we should just get into it. Do you know? But that's my thought. I hear that a lot from almost everyone. And I'm just like, can you please build me a coffin from like random wood and bury me in a cemetery? And I want a beautiful headstone. And I want to become a skeleton. Is that? That's funny. So it's just like the appearance that you've had or like, you know, maybe that was a task that you were assigned to do in a past life where you prepared bodies and you took care of bodies. And it was very normal to you.

25:12 So you've normalized it. That is really interesting because I've always wanted to be like a mortician. It just never, it just never happened. Maybe it could still happen. Funny. The funny thing is when I started school about, oh gosh, probably 14 years ago, I was trying to figure out what to be when I was going to grow up and I was 40. Right. Like all is 54 now, like, oh God. But I was 40 and I remembered going back to, I did go to college. And while I was there, you know, they gave those Myers Briggs testing to see where, what level you should, you know, what place you should go and focus your energy on. You know, logical thinking this and that.

25:53 Mine kept on coming up as being a mortician. Oh, no. Pretty close. I did three of them. Oh my gosh, I should take one and see what it does. It's just like funeral home director or mortician. I'm like, I'm not doing that job. I don't like dead bodies per se. I talk about the dead, but I don't like dead bodies. And I really wasn't into this back then. It really wasn't. It was something that was like there. I knew it, but I was ignoring it. I really got into my mediumship about nine years ago. Oh, wow. Well, I was in my problem in my last semester of school and I was like, okay, I can't do night now. It's here. What made you say that?

26:33 So my daughter's friend, they were still in, they were out of high school, but it was her high school friend. My daughter and her boyfriend had their own apartment and then they were done with that apartment and wanted to move. And so we were going to go do the clean out for her. So we were on the way over there. And she's, I'm going to ride with you, I'm going to ride with you. And we got stuck behind traffic. So we were there a little, you know, traffic a little longer than everybody else. And funny how spirit works that way. And she just kind of looked at me. I was driving and she goes, Teresa, she ever filmed my grandma and I looked at her and I said, I feel a lot of things. I just don't know who they are. And I said, so I can't honestly answer that question, sweetie.

27:15 But if I ever do, I'll let you know, is that okay? And she goes, I would really love it if you could communicate with my grandma. I know that you see things and feel things because you know, all the kids always love my stories. And all the high schoolers, oh my God, we'd have the best Friday nights. Go stories now, but they were all real stuff and they were like, oh my God. And so we're at the apartment. She's upstairs and I'm downstairs. I'm back in. Back in has always been that white noise to me. That's always triggered. And funny thing is I had a house cleaning business while I raised my kids. Oh, wow. Okay. Back to me, my hands a lot. And so, you vacuum in. I'd be like, oh my God, they're all around me.

27:59 Why is it? So I literally had to turn up music really loud, distract myself with like singing or something. So I went see and feel everything that I was seeing. So I was vacuuming and all of a sudden I was like, what was that? It was a new sensation I had never gotten before. It looked like a chalkboard in my head and somebody wrote a big letter on it. It was a new feeling that her B as an boy. And I went, what the heck was that? It was just like all of a sudden thing. And I'm screaming, per Katie to come downstairs because it scared the bacheezey's out of me. I'm on. And she comes running down the stairs because she's okay. She's out of got electrocuted or something because I was like, and she was, what's wrong?

28:41 And I said, I don't know. Got this weird thing just in my head. But my eyes are open. And I'm seeing it in my head. And she goes, what would you see? And I said the big letter B. And she laughed and she goes, that was my grandma's name. We called her grandma B. And I was like, no, it's not that. It's not that. No. And she goes, it is. I just know it is. And then I said, okay, okay. And I said, I'm going to call myself down. And because I was pretty freaked out. It was a really new experience for me. This was something they were communicating with me. And I already freaked out when people, spirits are always around me anyway. I'm always like, oh, God, they're going to touch me.

29:22 And so this was new. And so to my backup stairs and I'm going, all right, grandma B, if you're here, let me know if you're doing it a good way, doing it a good way. Don't touch me or anything like that. And I'm going to like to just show me that you're here. And I got a very simple picture in my head of like the only way I can explain is like a jewelry box opening and closing. Okay. I knew it was a jewelry box because I had like the same one. They used my frames of references. I had a jewelry box as well, girl with a little ballerina. And that's what I saw. And I went, okay, that was not something that I would have thought about.

30:02 So that's what doing a reading is. It's not my thoughts. So I called her back down. And I said, I think your grandma wants me to talk about a jewelry box. And Katie just fell to the floor crying. I just was walking up the stairs and in my head, I asked my grandma to please show her the jewelry box so that we know that it's her. That's when I, and they're doing it live time. Like I'm really feeling this at the exact same time they're saying it and showing it to me. So we just sat there both and just like, wow, and she goes, this is new on I go, it's freaking new.

30:43 Oh my freaking God knew, you know, and I was like freaking out. And she was like, what else you got? What else you got? No, the thing I realized that day, I stopped being scared. Oh God. Here I've seen those pictures in my head and everything was gone. By the end of the day, I was seeing the last thing I saw got tons of stuff for her. It was very personal to her. I kept on seeing that puzzle that was incomplete. That was sitting on a flat surface and I called her up at the end of the day because it was after we dropped her off and I said, Katie, I see an incomplete puzzle. Does that mean anything to you? Because I don't know why I'm seeing it while I'm shopping at the grocery store. And she goes, wow, dad, she just saw the puzzle.

31:27 And they're like, oh my God. And I'm like, oh my God, what I get, what I get. She was doing a puzzle on her lap when she was found dead on her chair. Oh my gosh. It was very specific to them. So I really realized that day that spirit really wanted me to communicate and sat in the hot tub, asked the spirit to guide me and let me know what's going on. And I looked at it was the night before. The night before I'd asked the spirit to kind of guide me because I was getting a lot of sensations and stuff when I was down in San Diego on a vacation. And that was the production the next day. 12 hours after I asked for it to get stronger or go away, that happened.

32:09 Wow. That was the most significant thing I think that changed my whole thing was. I asked for it. I did. For it to either go away, I was fine with it to go away or to make it stronger so I can understand it. And I asked the universe that 12 hours before she asked me about her grandmother. Wow. That's just crazy validation. Oh my God. Yes. And it's been a validation ever since. Wow. You know, some of the stuff is, you know, some of my experiences, not during readings or anything like that, but I've had experiences myself that could be so scary and that could totally shoot me away for what I'm doing. But I always stand very firm with anything negative and I'm like, you're not going to deter me from this.

32:52 That's awesome. Yeah. It's like kind of how I am with negative stuff. I'm just like, no, you can't come in here. Yep. Yep. I've had quite a few of you want me to share those I can. Yes. If you feel comfortable sharing any, I would love for people to hear the really scary stuff and that you're still doing it and to hear all the good stuff. I just push it right through because I know that light is stronger than dark and I will always honor that. Just about maybe, let's see, must have been May. My daughter was in the hospital for about a month while she was in labor with this baby. The current ones, she ended up same issue and so they kept on the hospital for a month and she ended up being okay and he was okay, which was awesome.

33:38 But so the whole month of May, she was in the hospital. So we live about 15 minutes from my daughter and I have about 30 minutes outside of town. So it was quite the hospital 30 minutes that way. Her house 15 minutes, both was that way, taking care of her animals and her home while she was in the hospital and going to take care of her and trying to work. So man, my due dead tired, just canceled all my readings for the month of May, just dead tired to the world. And those are the times when darker energies can really sneak in. So those are the times when you really need to protect yourself with that white light, do a meditation daily and really, really protect yourself. I wasn't doing it because I was just so exhausted and I was worried and I had not only the fear of losing another grandchild, losing my daughter because she would have lost another child, I would have lost my daughter.

34:30 And it just, that big on my heart. So May sucked. So it wasn't that long ago, it was four or five months ago. And went to bed one night and I asked my husband, are you coming to bed too? Because it was getting pretty late and he says, yeah, I'm coming. And I could have sworn I heard him click off the TV. I just could have sworn I heard it, but you know, you just hear things and stuff. I walked down the hallway, we have a pretty long hallway to our bedroom and the room was really dark and I just kept it that way and slid right in and it's like, oh my god, I get to sleep, you know, for four hours before I have to do this all over again. And I felt the bed move. Nothing as far as lights changed or anything like that.

35:10 I felt the bed moved. I felt the small of my back like a light touch. And I thought, oh, my head is a bit, I get to snuggle and I love snuggles. And so I'm kind of moving more towards his side, but with my back face there and all of a sudden I heard a growl, a very distinct, awful, horrible growl in my ear. I knew my husband would never in my, in his life growl like that. It was, it was nasty. And I turned around because when I have anything that happens to me negatively, I face it. I never, ever coward out because I know that that's what they want. So I turned and I was thinking, I'm going to see something pretty nasty right now, but it didn't show itself to me, but I felt its presence.

35:55 And I just sat up in bed and my husband was still, I could still see the TV light down the hallway since I was looking that way now. And looked and I looked over there and I just went, get the hell out of my house and don't you ever fucking come back. And I'm screaming at it. And my husband's like, what honey and I go, oh, nothing, honey. I just, the cat ran across my face. And I got mad at the cat. You know, I had to pick up like a story really fast. I'm like, uh, uh, uh, uh, I'm reading an entity from his side of the bed and he's going to have to come to bed here all soon. It wasn't going to happen. And so I felt the presence leave like immediately and the shift and the air changed everything, but I was like, oh my God.

36:38 And I knew immediately right then and there, I'm too tired. I need to take a little mental break and I need to get some really good sleep. So I kind of revenge my schedule will definitely the next day to meditate, to get some rest, and eat some good food and to, you know, really be a little better about not accepting that kind of energy in my home because of my fatigue. And so that's what we need. As light workers really need to be careful that we get broke down, they get a creep in. And so being a child, you can creep in all the time because children don't have those defense mechanisms. My daughter was, my daughter who had the baby was terrified by spirits as a child, by negative entities as a child.

37:19 We went through a bottle of tons probably every two months in our house and it was because she had heartburn constantly. Aww. Or baby, I had no idea. I had no idea what was going on because she was, uh, unable to speak. So she got, I at such a young age that she really didn't get to develop and they didn't diagnose her until she was like two, that she was starting to speak and all of a sudden tongue twisted. And I talked to a few mediums down the line and they're like, that's from pure fear. That's from pure fear because she was talking and then all of a sudden it twisted. It wasn't, she was born that way. Her son was born with a tongue twist, which isn't just a tongue tie.

38:00 And so she was not, she did not get diagnosed as a baby and she was talking. She was able to speak and then all of a sudden nothing. She just couldn't even get words out. So she couldn't speak to me. She wasn't speaking to therapy for three days a week for a year. So she couldn't speak to me and tell me what she was seeing. All she had was fear in her eyes all the time. And that is so heartbreaking. That is one of the, you know, one of the reasons I'm, I'm an advocate really for people who have been children with issues in the house. I will go to your house. I will talk to you for an hour on the phone. I will do anything to help that child. I do not want that. I do not want that for children because my child lived it.

38:40 I lived it. No one understood what I was seeing. I didn't have the ability to communicate to my family about what was going on. We were living in dire situations with, you know, being very poor. There was no resources for that kind of stuff. And I didn't understand it anyway. So I just zipped it and shut it and didn't speak about it. But my daughter couldn't speak. I was the worst thing about it, you know. So I like to give children voices if possible. Yeah. Oh, that is so amazing. Kids shouldn't have to do with that. They got enough going on. They just do not need that. So yeah, it's, it's a gift when, when we can help the little ones.

39:21 That's for sure. It is. And it's nice to know that there's another option too of something to look at. Even if you don't necessarily believe in it, maybe just even look at it as an option to help if you've gone, you know, and tried to do everything else. Right. If we can just offer any advice or say anything to them to give them any kind of guidance or help, definitely. I'm currently helping this little little lady in my town, she's 97. And her family got ahold of me through social media and put it out there saying, I'm looking for a meeting in the area, please don't judge me kind of a thing. But if anybody can contact in, I guess my name was mentioned on there quite a few times because I live in a pretty small, you know, area, Eugene, Oregon.

40:03 And it's not tiny, but it's not huge. But a lot of people that put me down and so she contacted me and I'm so glad she did. Her mother's so sweet, 97 years old, lives by herself still and wants to. But from the best of what I can become is she has a portal in her house. She keeps on getting spirits and keeps visiting her different ones every night. And she looks at me and I like it out of my house and they'll get up and walk right out of the closet. It's always the closet. So you got a little portal going on in her closet. Why is it always the closet? Oh no, my daughter was horrified by her closet. But I'm going to go over there this week since I'm back from being out of town and all that kind of stuff on the stage. I'm going to put some crystals out.

40:44 And but I've been given the family advice with like salt to do all the, you know, openings being very verbal about this is what I don't want. This is what I want. And it has been helping. There has been some less activity, but I want it gone. 97 year old woman doesn't need to be faced with that kind of stuff. It's just, you know, hard enough to get up in the morning and deal with it and everything in her ailments. But she's very with it, you know, and she's just like, they just sit at the end of my bed and they stare at me and I'm like, oh, yeah, I know that one. I had a house with a portal. So I understand. Oh, and they just stare at you from the hallway and they under your bed and had that grown up too. And you wake up and you're seeing spirit just staring at you.

41:25 Why? I know why. I've never seen anything during, like, during my waking time that I know of anyway. But I've had, I had really bad sleep paralysis dreams, which now I've just, I've explained away by science now, but it's so freaky. But one of them was like, I would wake up and be seeing my room, but I like knew my eyes were closed, but I could still see my room. And I saw like a little creepy girl standing at the end of my bed staring at me and I was just like, seriously. It got so bad with my daughter, we were public and she would say, she's probably about eight.

42:07 She looked over a side of her eyes and looked over and she go, do you see that? And I go, I do. And she goes, okay. And she'd be like, I just want to make sure she was real. It got so bad because she was seeing so many and that she was being really bombarded by spirit. She has a lot of PTSD today because of it. She admitted. Like, I can't go there mom. I don't want to talk about it. Just way too much PTSD. She was probably one of the most horrific things. She was about 16. So very aware, very much awake, middle of the day, towards the end of the day, but it's about maybe like five, six o'clock in the evening. And her then, then boyfriend now ex-boyfriend was in the bathroom. We had a very long hallway. He was in the bathroom in the middle of the hallway.

42:49 Her bedroom was at the far end of the hallway at the left. And I was in the kitchen way over here. So was like, you know, quite a distance away from me, but I heard the blood-curdling screen that I'd never heard before. And he pops his head out of the bathroom like, what was that? So I know he didn't scare her. It was like, there was no way within that immediate. I was right there. And he's like, like, go, like, go to her. You know, you can get there faster than I do. I was trying to get to her. And by that time she ran across a man in a my room. And she was, she couldn't speak. She was so hysterical. She couldn't speak. She couldn't breathe. She was turning blue. I was just like, just breathe.

43:30 And she was just breathing. And she was trying to get the words out and finally got a calm down. And she was standing at the edge of the bed, grabbing a few things off the top of the bed. And something underneath the bed grabbed and hung onto her ankle. No. There are the bed. And she's 16. She's not like a little five-year-old saying and making this up. She was horrible. My kid, she never lied about that kind of stuff. I had never once ever thought she was faking it or anything like that. She didn't want to, especially that kind of attention. And a new her boyfriend couldn't have done it because of where he was. He couldn't have got under a bed and got that, no matter the second. And so I'm just like, it's okay. It's okay. Mommy will take care of it.

44:10 And she's like, you can't take care of something like that. You're never walking in that room again. And she was hysterical. I took her and taking him home. And she came back, slept in my room. And the next day, I went and got him while she was at work. I said, you're helping me rid whatever's in there. He goes, I'm not going there there. I'm not going to your house ever again. I'll break up with her. I don't care. But you come with me. And he agreed to come with me to the house and we got the sage out. And I had about a 1,600 square foot house. So we started at one end and worked our way there because we were both very much feeling it. And he's as sensitive as well. He picked a boy from that had the same gussets her at a best friend with the same guss.

44:53 So there was a lot of stuff going on because we were all feelers and seers. Yeah. Oh my god. Back it be bad. So we went around the whole house and ended up in her room. I did under the bed, the couch, opened up, I had the windows and the whole house opened doors, everything. And I say, I say, get out of my house. You're not welcome. Anything of the white light can stay. I want everything else gone. And we both felt it like the back of your neck hair. And he was looking at his arm and he was like, it's not gone. It's not gone. And he goes, this isn't going anywhere. And I remember something that my son and law has said to me, his family from Mexico. He said they scream at them that they scream at the dark energy that the dark entities to get out their house and they scream in Spanish really, really loud.

45:40 And I was like, you know, I'm going to try that. Why not? I'm mad. I'm mad at this point. It's not leaving. It's my daughter's room and we need to have the space. I'm a bear. I'm a bear came out full force. So I screamed some very, very loud words and stage underneath the bed one more time. And then we were standing at the closet with our white sage and he goes, oh my God. And I looked over and through the mattress. I'm talking through the mattress, a dark swirl of smoke came through and sage is white light, white, white smoke. We were nowhere near it. And it was coming through the mattress. And I'm looking at him. He's looking at me and he goes, keep looking at it.

46:21 And he just like keep looking at it and I go, you're right. We need to tell it like it doesn't belong here. It all came through and then it just hovered right above her bed and it hovered. It was like testing me. I had never seen anything like that in my life. I felt it though. It was awful. Ugly energy. And I just did one more scream. I said, get the fuck out of my house and don't you ever come back and I point at the window and that's where it went. That is amazing. And so he looked at me. I looked at him. We couldn't have got out that room fast enough. We were stumbling each other through the doorway all the way. I must have fallen down the hallway. We made it to the other side of the house and he goes, what the hell was that? And I go, that is what grabbed my daughter yesterday.

47:04 He goes, you got rid of it. And I go, well, you helped. But we got rid of it. She came home from work. She never knew up until a month ago or so. She was 16. She was 25 now. She didn't know until about a month ago that I did that. Oh wow. She came home and she took a deep breath down the hallway because she needed to get something on the room and she took a deep breath at the doorway. And I was standing right there and I go, you're fine. Everything's fine. She went in there and she goes, it feels different. And then she never told me why it felt different. I never told her that I did that. He never told her. But yeah, she found out about a month ago. I had posted something. And she saw it and she goes, in my room.

47:45 And I'm like, oops. I forgot to tell you that one. Yeah, just slipped my mind. I didn't think you can handle it back then, honey. You were pretty stressed out. But I don't want to talk about it. I don't want to talk about it. And I never did. She never asked about it. Oh, yeah. She was like, that would make me feel so protected though that I had a mother who was that powerful against something so dark. It felt really good to be able to be that mom that my mom couldn't because she didn't understand it. But I could be this mom to her until she was older. I wasn't able to help when she was younger. And I think that's why I love helping the little. I just, I feel like that's just something that's part of me.

48:26 And like, you know, from past experiences, past lives, whatever it is, it's just something in me. But that dark energy, you know, some people don't believe in dark energy. I don't care what they believe. I said, I'm not here to convince anybody. I just know my own experiences. And that was the really nasty experience. Yeah. Oh my gosh. So how do you feel about Ouija boards? I actually stay away from anything like that. My friend actually made a spirit board. He called it. And so it's very similar to a Ouija board. It was blessed. And he was a, he's still practices being a Buddhist monk, but he is a medium. So it's kind of a contradictory of terms. Oh, okay. That's really cool though. He's my walking, talking contradiction of a friend, of a Buddhist monk.

49:10 We have a lot of laughs together. But he actually made this board and had it blessed. And he blessed it as making it. And this, and I actually used it one time during a reading for a friend. And names were coming through and this and that. But it's just a tool. It's just a tool. I don't think Ouija boards is something that most people should play with. If it's used as a tool for people who already know what they're doing, it could be okay. But I don't think people should use it because I think anything could come through, but anything could come through with a lot of things. Yeah. But more of an opportunity is what I'm saying. You know, you get tired. The spirit and dark spirit can come through. You have a lot of grief. Dark spirits can come through.

49:50 This is just another way for it to come through by using a board. Yeah, I was kind of wondering why it's always seems to be dark energy coming through Ouija board. I don't think I've had a good story about Ouija board. Yeah. Because it's not something that most people should play with. They don't have the ability to communicate with spirit. Why are they communicating with spirit on a board? I can be. You have to go the proper way. Learn a technique. Do it and see what you get. But don't use something that can just so easily trick you and manipulate you. Always cracks me up when I hear people say. All mediums and stuff.

50:31 You guys are just all, you know, you're just getting a mold of dark energy and they're fooling you and this and that. My take on that is this and my grandma actually said it to me. She was very religious before she died. She says, I actually like that you're a medium and I actually believe that you do have this gift and I commend you for moving forward on your gift. And she died about six years ago. So I was, you know, kind of newer but not too new. But she said, she asked because she asked me this one day. She always called me baby Terry. She said, baby Terry, do you ever feel anything negative when you do a reading? I said, absolutely not. She goes, do they leave feeling good? And I said, absolutely. And she goes, then that's your answer. She says anything negative.

51:12 She says the dark, dark energy is, she called it the devil wherever you want to call it, is never going to make people feel better. Right. So if you're doing something that makes people feel better, keep doing what you're doing. And I will always, always 100% feel that way. I love that so much. That's beautiful. So how do you feel about tarot cards and stuff like that? Is it the same as like a Ouija board or do you? No, I actually love tarot readings. I have a deck but I really don't use my use oracle cards because I feel that they're same thing. Yeah. The tool, it's just a tool. If the person doing it is a medium, it's just a tool to use to get that same message that they're going to get from feeling spirit and from seeing spirit and communication.

51:58 It's just a different way of communication. I don't have any odd feelings or negative feelings about tarot at all. Oh, that's awesome. Yeah, because we have some people, we don't have a lot of people say it, but I just know that there's people out there that think it's evil and people are always going to have their opinion, right? That scared the crap out of me when you moved your phone. It sounded like a breathing and I was looking down and I was like, was it the evil? I love it. That's so funny. So I actually brought my moon oracle deck today. Should I pull a card? Yeah, sure. Let's do it. I can pull one too if you want me to.

52:38 Yeah. What do you have? I got mystical journey. Ooh, I love it. Yeah. Those are so pretty. I love this deck. Yeah, this one would not let me leave the store without it. I tried and I was like, no, I had to take it home. Got to do it. Got to do it. I love that. Yeah. We've had a beautiful relationship ever since. And these are my colors. I was very drawn to the colors. These are just when you're drawn to color and you're drawn to different artwork and stuff. Like, speaking to you, like, oh, you got to do that. That's going to be something. That's what I pay attention to. Who already had a card that popped.

53:19 Oh, you're dead. Yeah. You're more talented than me. My flip, flip, flip, it flips right out. It'll fall on the floor. Also my lap. It's crazy. People have seen it. They're like, oh, my stars. That's crazy how fast that comes through. And it's usually two, three in. And I got a card. Oh, I love that. Yeah. That happens to me sometimes. I don't think of somebody during the day too, like my stepdaughter down to San Diego. I'll be thinking of her and I'll be like, oh, I got a full record card, like immediately. And I'll go do her and send the card and send a picture of the book. And she goes, you have zero idea right now. How flip and much I needed to hear those words.

53:59 Like, it is always spot on and try to on Facebook every Saturday. I pull, I put out three cards and I put them upside down. And I say, pick one that you're drawn to from just the energy. And then on Sunday, generally, I turn it around and I take a picture of it and I give the message down below. I tell you, almost every single person that ever partakes in that, they're like, it's like spot on me for this, what's going on this weekend, what's going on my life when I'm anticipating tomorrow blah, blah, blah, blah. This is like, how was that so? And it's just like, because you drew it. Yeah. You felt the energy. You felt the energy. You went to it. So we have more power than we know.

54:41 We need to realize that we do have a lot of power. Everybody has this gift. It's just act upon it. Yeah. We're all connected. So we all obviously have the same gifts. We just have it in different levels and different ways because some of us actually study it and move forward with it. I mean, I decided to practice it as soon as it started becoming more real like that one day with my daughter, Shron Katie. It was like, well, I guess this is what I am now. So they're to get on the ball and start doing it. I guess this is my life now. You're like, you know, hard to just a date when you're in medium. Oh my gosh. I bet. I could write a book on that.

55:22 Oh my gosh. My current husband, we've been together for four years now. When we went our first date a little over four years ago, he was going to be my last date. I put out to the universe. I don't want to date anymore. If this is the one, make it happen otherwise, I'm done. And he was the one. And he had said, he pretty much said the same thing. He was like, feeling the same way. He was just like, I hate this dating stuff. It's just, yeah. This is too hard, especially when you're in your 50s or we were both in our late 40s. I think he just turned 50. I was turning 50. And so he started talking about his past and this and that. And I was like, thank you for sharing. That is such a hard thing to share. And I said, can I share something about me? He said, sure.

56:02 I said on the medium and he goes, oh, you look more like a small. Where I fell in love with him that night. Oh, good answer. Good answer. Good answer. And I go, do you know what a medium is? And he goes, not particularly, but I didn't want to insult you. You look like a small. That is so freaking cute. That is because I wasn't trying to be cute. It just felt right to say it. Oh my gosh. And I absolutely was falling in love with him that night. It was so funny. I thought it was so sweet. Oh my goodness. So I did have a card pop out. So I was, you know, doing shopping and it popped out. Nice. It was authentic.

56:42 I love it. I love it. Which I feel like totally relates to what we were talking about today. Definitely. So I'm going to go to the little page here and see what it says. So these have a quote in here. So it says authentic. The privilege of a lifetime is to become who you truly are. CJ Young. I love that. Yes. This is so perfect. I love it. So true because, you know, to be your authentic self and really push forward. And if you know you have a gift and you want to do something in life, if you don't use it, it's just like wasting this lifetime of this time.

57:24 You need to be able to do things like, like I said, I'm very drawn to helping children and this and that. I feel like I was supposed to be here to help with that. It's like that is a huge purpose of mine and giving children a voice. That's actually my next book I'm working on. And so it's really important to me. So you've got to take what you already are feeling and then you've got to push forward. Even if you do it in such a small way or a very magnified way, does it matter? You still use it. Yeah. You know, like it's help people, even if you just fall into your time and you do this, da da da da, you're using that gift. You're helping develop something inside of you and others and that's really what being authentic is.

58:06 Yeah. And start small. Don't put any pressure on it. Certainly. There's times like, I mean, some days, some months are just reading after reading after reading after reading and then other months it's like really slow and I take pride in that I take. I'm like, oh thank god it's slow right now. I can breathe again for a little while and I kind of look forward to the down moments. And then there's sometimes I feel like I don't want to do this anymore. I'm too busy or this is going on and I just remember and I go back and I'm like, no, I'm supposed to do this. It's just that means life is talking to me right now and I need to step back a little bit. And I'm in a step back period right now. It's been a busy year. We've had a lot of losses here. I've lost, follow my mom. My nephew, my whole thing with my daughter having the baby, all these things came up and said, just hold them out of time.

58:54 That's just been since May. And it's only in October and it's just was one thing after that. I haven't had a lot of time to breathe. And so stepping back from what your gift is is, okay, it doesn't mean you're never going to do it again. It just means you need a breather. We're only human. We're in this body. We need to take care of this body. Otherwise we can't do what we're doing. Exactly. That's really important. So my card would love. My card was take back your power. Oh, I love that. These like totally go together. Black, it mine doesn't have a short little thing, but the action card, the action at the end is use the symbol of the water lily as encouragement to speak your truth and acknowledge how you really feel.

59:38 When you speak up and honor your soul, if you don't speak up and stay underwater, you cannot shine your true light. Oh, that's so beautiful. Oh, then tick. Seriously. Okay, easy. This has more to it. It has a whole little page and I think I should read it now. You should. You should. Yeah, mine has a whole page. I just said the last part too. Oh, okay. Yeah, let's see. Okay. So the keywords are shed and brace and true begin to peel away your layers. Try to reverse and go back from adulthood to childhood to discover your authentic self. Unfortunately, society can influence us slowly molding us into cookie cutter humans.

1:00:18 By the time we reach adulthood, we have often lost sight of our genuine selves. Your peer and raw being is safely tucked away in your deepest core where you protect it from others. Be brave and do not let others unnecessarily influence you, your beliefs, values and opinions. Stay true to yourself. Embrace your private thoughts and entertain your passions. Oh, my God. Celebrate all that you have learned from your life's experiences. Carry your own unique and individual torch high with pride. Oh, yeah. And the intention says, like go of the facade, you may be wearing to please others.

1:00:59 Purify, feel your freedom and embrace your true self. Wow. Wow. Wow. It likes to talk to me about tracks like five times. I'm like, whoa, whoa. It's so true and it's taking back the power card that I pulled is so similar that authentic self. I'll read a little bit more to the water lily because it's a water lily on there. Oh, I love that. The water lily is an ancient symbol that signifies hope, rebirth and purification. It represents your earth bound human self reaching for the light on this card. The lily roots are very deep in the mud, which symbolizes your earth life. The beautiful flowers emerge from the water and reach towards the sky, embodying your yearning to connect with your higher self.

1:01:41 In this image, the woman's soul is being tethered by pillars because she is not expressing her needs. Stop being authentic. Wow. Our people and herself small can be hesitancy to speak your truth. Instead, you say silent in an effort to keep the peace and minimize conflict. Speaking up means being true to yourself and taking back your power. Maybe you are scared of making a mistake of making some changes or finding yourself alone. The taking back your power card appears when you need to say something you've been wishing to verbalize for a long time. Remember who you truly are. For your soul knows that if you speak your truth, you will not only survive, but will thrive. Express how you feel even if you are scared or you run the risk of losing your spirit.

1:02:22 Woo! Wow. Those are good. How did we get such connected cards and how far apart are we? Right. Isn't that crazy? Yeah. And we're really talking about that about being true to who we are and being honest about, you know, being a medium and being who I am and helping kids speak their truth. It's like, that's the authentic. I want kids to be authentic. I want little girls, little boys to grow up and just be their authentic self no matter what it is. You know, giving our little ones the power, I think, is the most important thing we can do for them right now. I love that. And I also think we always say we do tarot on the show.

1:03:04 You know, we're a true crime and paranormal podcast. So it kind of goes tarot with the paranormal side, but we don't really see that a lot, but everyone always asks why we want to incorporate the tarot readings just to be unique. But it was mostly just because that's just who we are. So we just want to do what we do every day. Yes. You want to do what makes you feel right. You also want to have an audience and you need to be able to relate to many people. And, you know, like, you know, with me working with the light, I can't help but the dark tries to get me sometimes, you know, I don't sometimes have a choice. But, you know, we got to remember the light and the dark are always there.

1:03:44 They're best of each other. But so yeah, I stick with the white light, but look at the dark stuff. So it tries to sneak in. I can't help that. Yeah. We all just have to be strong and remember that we have the power we can do. Yes. Absolutely. The power is truly the most important gift that we can give them because that will last a lifetime. It's like the old saying with teacher man to fish, you know, so he can he can fend for himself for lifetime. It's the same thing. Giving somebody the power to be able to protect themselves. I've done many, many, many little small clips and I even did a class one time about protecting yourself, protecting your energy and how to do it.

1:04:29 One of the main things is to keep the light around you and that is taking care of yourself, self-care wise, going into nature and really absorbing nature, eating well, meditating daily, keeping those vibration levels up because that when I realized that that dark entity had gone through and growled in my ear, I realized that my vibrational level must have been so low that he's like, oh, I'm going to match you. You're right at my level now because I was so down deep and dark. And what I realized at that time too is with my daughter being in the hospital, I was having so much fear because of what happened before to her losing that baby and what it was going to do to her.

1:05:10 And so my granddaughter actually stepped in one night when all this was going on and she had me remember, grandma, you can't have faith in fear in your heart at the same time. Figure out which one you want and keep that one. And so my daughter was actually in the ER when this was happening right before she got put in the hospital for 30 days. She was in the ER for a scare and that's when my granddaughter came to me and she goes, grandma she's going to be okay. I told her I'm going to have a brother and he's going to be okay. And so I had to take that fear out of my heart and I had to replace it with that faith and I just knew.

1:05:50 And ten minutes later she called and she says, oh, I'm good. They're sending me home. And I was like, okay. Thank you, Adalie. Thank you. Also, I noticed while you were saying that this kind of, it's like a pink moon and it kind of looks like, you know, the little, what are those called above baby's cribs? Oh, the little mobile. Yeah. It looks like a mobile up there. He loves mobile. Oh my God. He just, there looks at those mobiles. He's, I swear, he sees a sister when I'm sure. The face is going everywhere. He looks over. They have a memorial stand in the corner and he dares at that memorial stand ever since he was two months old.

1:06:31 He just stares at it, stares at it. And I'm like, my God, he sees her and he's done the whole, what do you do around me? And I, God, I love seeing that. I'm like, it's so beautiful. It's so beautiful. It is amazing. It's truly amazing to be able to do a reading for somebody who's lost a baby. To me has been one of the greatest gifts of being a medium because they get to not only know that their baby stays with them in spirit and is always with them, but I mean, I got names and I remember saying one time I was like doing one. I'm like, she wants to say Lily, Lily, Lily, I keep on and she was just like, she goes, that was supposed to be our little girl's name when we changed the name.

1:07:14 And you wait at that. They're like, they're like all over. You're trying to like, she'll know if you say Lily. And so I love it because they get that immediately crocodile tears are going, but it's of joy. And so it's like they aren't with me, huh? I'm like, they're with you and don't worry. There's another baby coming out. I usually know and there's another baby coming. There's been some tragedy and stuff like that with some, you know, cases, but I only feel what I feel like there's another baby coming that I can't always know exactly. I'm not a, you know, not a fortune teller. But I feel like these pregnant, I've definitely felt that I've even guessed a baby name one time.

1:07:57 Oh my gosh. My friend of mine's her sister was pregnant and they just found out that it was a girl and they had a girl name picked out. Nobody knew the name and she was like, touch my belly. And I'm like, okay. And she goes, see if you know. And I'm like, this isn't going to work. I don't know what you're talking about. There's a girl. I'm like, you're not, I'm not going to know this. And I'm like, oh my god. I started to get the letters. I started to get the letters. And I'm like, I don't want to say it. She was just saying it. Just say it. And I said the name and she was just like, no. And everybody's like in the family because only two people knew her and her husband, nobody else. Like, is that her name? They're like, oh my god. And I want that.

1:08:38 I don't think it was a baby telling me. I think it was grandma telling me. Grandma, I think spirit was telling me. It could have been the baby, but I don't know. I don't know how that works. But the babies are just amazing. Baby energy really is. I just want people to know their babies don't leave them. Their babies don't leave them. That's why I wrote that book. Their babies don't leave them. Thank you so much for sharing all of those very personal stories with us. I'm an open book, literally. And that's why, my life, I'm an open book. And I feel like, if I share my story with others, then they won't be. So apprehensive of sharing theirs. And we are all of one.

1:09:18 We're all supposed to be just, we're all connected. Let's connect more, you know? And that way they don't live in fear. That's the last thing I want anybody to do is live in fear for the rest of their life in this world. It's not worth it. It's too much time. Takes too much energy. Seriously. Thank you so much. Is there anything else that you wanted to talk about or share or plug? My healingheartsmedium.com page. That's my website, healingheartsmedium.com and Adalie the Angel Becomes a Sister. It's on Amazon. Perfect. Yay, thank you so much. I was so great to talk to you. I was so great to talk to you. I appreciate this time. You have a wonderful afternoon. You too. Have a creepy ass day.

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